eventful day!

just went to see Zoe blog and i saw the lyrics of a song which i lvoed so much when i was studying back in ACS. so i took the liberty to copy it from her blog to mine! =p

here it goes...

Thank You Lord
Thank You, Lord
For the trials that come my way
In that way I can grow each day
As I let you lead
And I thank You, Lord
For the patience those trials bring
In the process of growing
I can learn to care

But it goes against the way I am
To put my human nature down
And let the Spirit, take control of all I do
Coz when those trials come
My human nature, shouts the things to do
And God's soft prompting
Can be easily ignored

But I thank You, Lord
With each trial I feel inside
That You're there to help, lead and guide
My way from wrong
Coz You promised, Lord
That with every testing
That Your way of escaping's
Easier to bear

Yes I thank You, Lord
For the victory that growing brings
In surrender of everything
Life is so worthwhile
And I thank You, Lord
That when everything's put in place
Out in front I can see Your face
And it's there You belong

i really felt that this is so true..esp the chorus..sometimes my human nature shouts the things to do and i can ignore God's soft promting.. i pray that when that happens, rather than submitting to my human nature, i will obey God's leading.

Today has been quite an eventful evening..taught whole morning then went visitation. after that i met elle for dinner and we were discussing which car she should get. haha..learnt a little about cars. the pricing that is. Evo 9 is ready for orders! but that must wait...after NS..i pray that i can be financially independent enough then to get one! hah=) I know God sees the desires of my heart..counting down to my own Evo!

I am so excited about tomorrow service! Pst Mike service confirm plus chop.. awesome! I know that God has something installed for me! I pray that i will be open to His leading and if i must respond, i will. Holy Spirit speak to me even as i make my way to church early in the morning! I know You want to launch me into my destiny! I am 22 already Lord..make my life count for You. In Jesus name.

So excited for the service later! something is stirring in my heart..


God You are awesomely awesome!

The wind of the Holy Spirit is not sent to us to cool us down, but to fan the flame.

-Reinhard Bonke

i have decided to go on a one week fast. Pray that i will have new encounters with the Lord and greater strength to be an overcomer! In Jesus name.

reflections

On my way back on my bike, i was actually thinking of so many things which i had wanted to do but not doing.. from little things like, replacing my IC, driving license etc etc, to bigger things like, career. Then it dawn upon me that there are so many things that God is wanting to do with my life as well! He is still not through with my life! and i begin to pray my whole journey back home and it really felt awesome!

God just brought to my remembrance many promises He has spoken to me while i was yet young, just wanting more of His presence. Years ago when i was learning the guitar, my heart's prayer would always be, with every strum of the guitar, i could usher in the presence of God. just wanting to do more for Him.. to fulfill His call upon my life. And this is the cry of my heart today! I just want more of God's presence each day..I realised that all else are secondary as long as God is with me..ministry can wait, career can wait..because i know God provides. Today as i was on my bike, the promises of God came back to me as how the prodigal son was returning to the Father. I was returning to the safest place where all my dreams and desires birthed from. I was the prodigal son returning to the sweet embrace of God my Father. my Abba. My all. I feel so safe in this place, so warm. this is something that no man or woman can do..this love is love in its purest. Its Agape.

there is a heart cry within me.. a cry for God to speak to me each and every moment. A heart's desire for the move of God upon my life. I have found the hope of my life. God is my expectation. He is so amazing.

This was what God spoke to me on my journey back..some of the things He reminded me of..

Cedric, only be very courageous! do not fear what men can do to you because I am for you. you shall go to whoever i send you to.. My words you will speak..My deeds you shall acomplish, because i am with you. you will be like Jeremiah, going where i command and doing great wonders among the people. though you are not seeing it now, but I will show you what i can accomplish through your life.. eyes have not seen nor ear heard, nor have entered into the hearts of men what i will do through your life! only when you continue to abide in my Word. do not fear but only believe..havent you seen how i have raise up vessels who are willing to do my work. My calling upon your life are irrevocable. keep on keeping on..do not lose heart because I am with you. delay is never denial.. the gifts upon your life are never wasted. This book of law shall not depart from your mouth, but you shall meditate on it day and night, that you may observe to do according to all that is written in it. For then you will make your way prosperous, and then you will have good success. wait, i say on the Lord.


I am so in love with Him.


Trusting in His unfailing love......

Like the woman with the issue of blood
we press in, we press in
Like the blind man, waiting patiently
we press in, through the crowd

then suddenly, a touch from heaven
Jesus came and rescued me
then suddenly, a touch from heaven
Jesus came and set me free

I want more...

Truly God is an amazing God!! Remember i was quite sad weeks earlier when i received a $600 summon for illegal parking? and in the end i decided to go to Taiwan despite of that trusting that He will make a way for me?! He did! Today i walked happily into town council office to make a minimal payment for $100!! hahaha.. God is good! my prayers saved me $500! see? You ought to pray too! heh=p PTL!

I am so excited about this weekend service! Pst Mike conner is here!! Each time during his deliverance services, i can always feel the tangible presence of God so strongly! not to mention when He start moving into inner healing! when people all around start to be filled with such joy, words can never describe! I am expectant for God to speak to me and to move in my life! sometimes i just wished that i was more sensible and kingdom minded before.. but i also know that God will restore the years of my wanderings to me! nothing is ever lost in the kingdom of God! His calling upon my life are irrevocable! I have a tremendous destiny in God because He loves me and has placed the 'seed' of the highest quality in my life!

Psalms 4:7 -
You have put gladness in my heart, more than in the season that their grain and wine increased.

Indeed, the joy that God is putting into my heart far surpasses any other joy that worldly gains could ever bring! I will see the deliverance of His hands constantly upon my life! I am ready Lord.. take me on an adventure with You.

I pray that God will look into my heart..i pray that my motives are pure before Him..may i be a vessel that He can use! If You are willing Lord..I know You can use me. raise me up.. set my feet upon Your rock.. Let me see greater works being birthed forth out of my life! because You live in me..I am mighty in Your sight! I choose not to bow to circumstances.. i choose to trust Your leading. when my heart fails, I pray You will arise in me! You are strong when i am weak! You are Jehovah shammah! You are always with me.

Psalms 34:15,17-18
The eyes of the Lord are on the righteous, and His ears are open to their cry. The righteous cry out, and the Lord hears, and delivers them out of their troubles. The Lord is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves such as have a contrite spirit.

hear my prayers Lord...Let me be who You want me to be! i have a holy dissatisfaction..I want a greater portion of Your anointing upon my life..direct my path Lord. In Jesus name..

happening!!!

happening day today! met elle in the afternoon for lunch, then i bought my crumpler bag!! woooooo=) love it! after that around evening, met up with Zoe, Raymond, Carter for KTV!!! very fun today! manages to conquer quite afew songs! the song shan hu hai by Jay chou is really very high!! *faintz* but very nice and fun to sing! really enjoyed myself today! must go again soon! probably with some mission trip friends! will jio Zoe along again! ok Zoe? =) hehe

today on my way home after meeting andrew and gang, i was just singing and i remembered some old songs which really meant so much to me! heres one of it....

Great is the Lord and most worthy of praise
the city of our God the holy place
the joy of the whole world
and great is the Lord in whom we have the victory
He aids us against the enemies
we bow down on our knees

and Lord we want to lift Your name on high
and Lord we want to thank You
for the works You've done in our lives
and Lord we trust in Your unfailing love
for You alone are God eternal
throughout earth and heaven above!

wow.. great song!

truly only God deserve all my praise.. because He had never left me.. He remains faithful even while i was unfaithful! HE is the God who never changes and the only thing that changes is that.. He loves me more and more each and everyday! I am so in love with You Lord.. let this love never die..let me be a true lover who knows the heartbeat of Yours. I pray that You would sensitize my heart each day, make me broken before You. when i am weak, You are strong..You are my strong fortress, my help in times of need! You are just amazing!~ i just pray that my friends around me whom have yet to know You will give this relationship a try. because i know that they will never regret making this choice because i have never! You are my everything Lord.. thank You for all that You are to me.. I know that each day as i draw close to You, You will draw close to me.. love You so much abba!

In Love with You Lord..

Your Amazing!

What a long day today! slept this morning at 4am and woke up at 8am! then i rushed to church to try to book good seats for my members but to no avail=/ the trip was exciting! I zoom past a speed cam at about 110=x i was really too tired! jus moments ago i was reminding myself that there is a speed cam ahead and then..... haiz... good thing no flash! thank God.. then js before the exit to expo, i was travelling at about 115km/h, at the corner of my eye, i saw a white figure holding something and pointing it from the bridge!!! guess what.. its Mr. TP! zzzz.. my heart almost pop out of my mouth..I pray that he didnt snap any pictures!!!

service was great! the jokes were really very funny! hahah. I Pray for good in-laws! otherwise i will come out with another joke to circulate online! hehe!

today i had gastric the whole day!! grrr... really hates it each time this "old neighbour" comes to visit! so this is a weakness of my life too! that qualifies me for greatness in the kingdom of God!! hahaha.. .joking! (pastor kong has panic anxiety..and i have gastric) ok..very off topic... =p

Today as i was on the bike, many old songs was brought to my remembrance! i loved one of it so much!

theres a new wine that we're drinking
filled with Holy Ghost power
filling up to the top, and overflowing
so get into the river and drink from the well
springing up from the fountain
of the Holy Ghost

Oh taste and see, that the Lord is good!
fill me oh Lord, with Your oil of joy
like a river flow through me
like a fire burn so free
as i drink like You i will be!

really a beautiful song..it really refreshes me each time i began to worship God with it! God is a good God! and only He is worthy of my life service!

oh yeah..i was suppose to share about my taiwan trip! actually nothing much.. just that i realised i really hated smelly beancurd! YUUccks!!! taste like normal tofu..but the smell is ten thousand planets apart! yyyucckkss!! not to mention the smelly smelly wok! i wouldnt even consider trying that!

apart from that, everything else tasted quite good! i realised that the taiwanese, they've got very unique taste buds. hahah.. they like to eat things which doesnt smell so good... hmmm..weird! but they are really nice people! i really love the taiwanese!!! and i wan all the taiwanese to know that you are always a part of my prayer!!!! =) God bless Taiwan! Taiwan for Jesus!!!!!!

In recent months, i realised i spent quite abit of money! really wanted to buy a drumset but decided to go for the mission trip instead! and i have no regrets!! its worth more than 10 DW drumsets! I know someday when i go to heaven, God will give me a room fully equipped with the world best brands!!! heh.. I am thinking of taking up vocal lessons! because i see huang yida...he cannot sing that well also can become famous! maybe its worth a try! haha.. oh well, i wil pray about it first! hahaha. anyway, one important truth i've learnt is... WHAT MIGHT SEEM TO BE WORTH WORKING FOR MIGHT JUST NOT BE IT! because i rather do what God wants me to than what the world suggest!

Prayer for my life...

God i pray for strength to continually be upon me..I pray that i will learn humility in all things! I will be a vessel that You can flow through! Let me never do anything that might grieve Your Spirit because You are all i've got. God i pray for wisdom to come upon me, let it be a garment that clothe me daily! Your praise shall continually be on my lips because You are mighty! Your Word is living and powerful.. let Your words come forth from my mouth with authority! Let whatever i speak be established! i pray that i will be as Samuel in the bible, when he spoke, You never allowed his words t0 fall to the ground! make me who You want me to be Lord! I live my life for You..may it be a sweet smelling aroma to You. Let every fibre of my being honor You because i was made to worship You... expand my capacity, increase my understanding, widen my territories! I will carry out great exploits not because of who i am, but who You are in my life! In JEsus name..

AMEn!!!

VvrrrrOOooommmm

just got back from rounding with my bike friends! they really havoc! till now they are still going around! zzzzz... sometimes i really wished that they have a vision to live for.. something more than just going out with friends to ride and ride and ride, eat and eat and eat. I believe someday, they will want to live for Jesus! to dream great dreams for Him! I pray that through me, they will see the character of Jesus! the bible says that, i will be a light to the world, a salt of this earth! a city thats set on a hill cannot be hidden! I thank God for placing some of these friends into my life! Andrew, Chrislyn, Ivan.. i am praying for their salvation everyday! someday, we will march into heaven together! =) Amen.

today i went for service! it was awesome! pastor preached about learning how to stay in love with your spouse, learning to put God as the center of the marriage! Moral issues were also addressed! I felt that this message will take our church to the next level! the youths will start to expand their capacity and learn to live a life of purity before God! I pray that I will be an example in my conduct to the fellow believers! i am expectant of what God is going to speak to me in a few hours time! wow...

I am physically exhausted now..i am feeling aches all over my back and my neck.. perhaps i have not been sleeping well..i know that God will multiply my rest later! because i have another long day to go! tomorrow after service, i need to give bible study and later in the evening, i need to go do visitation! I pray for the wisdom of God to come upon me..so that i can speak whatever God wants me to and minister in the best way which is the God-way! =p In Jesus name..

I am really glad that i am reading the book by Reinhard Bonke.. It has caused a certain urgency to be birthed within me! I felt that i need to go back to the basic thats to love God wholeheartedly, and to love people fervently! I am not perfect but i pray that God will make me more and more like Him as days goes by!

today i saw the Taiwan emerge video!! at many points, i really felt so glad that i went to Taiwan to help out and to serve! I can sense so strongly that God has already started His work amongst the youths in Taiwan! and i know that He is well pleased with me because i obeyed and went! I am so thankful because the few days of emerge in Taiwan had really taught me to live my life by faith! to live my life according to the will of God. I am looking forward to more oppotunities to go for missions again!

ok...really am very very tired now..long ride to expo tmr morning! i wanna go grab good seats!!! so i better be off now! will blog again tmr night! or maybe morning? =p haha.. ritess...
may the Lord grant me His beloved rest!

Stir my heart Lord as i sleep.. prepare me for a great time tmr! In Jesus mighty name!

My Taiwan trip!!!

I am home!! wow! it had been an awesome 9 days in Taiwan! lots to write!!! but its all exciting!!!

during this trip, i got to know many great people! great servanthood shown in their attitude! got to know Daniel, great guy! thank God for him because i would have been very bored if he wasnt around. had the privilege to work with another leader called sarah. She has shown me what humility is and i have also learnt that to be a good leader, we must first be a good servant! got to know many of the Ushers who came along on this trip.. Adeline, Baotian and teams.. great and fun people too! just want to thank you all for making my first missiontrip count!

when i was there, i experienced TYPHOON!! its really exciting! i have never seen anything like dat before in my life.. not that i thank God for typhoon but just like what i said previously, i thank God when im in it..not for it=p anyway, it was quite scary at night.. when i was sleeping, i can really hear the wind blowing!! now i know how they got those ghostly sounds in chinese movies.. fun.

and so, day 1 of emerge begins! in this mission trip, we do everything. I was helping out with Ushering, bookstore, traffic marshall, counsellor. and we just do everything from PA to PR! physical arrangements to public relations! very exciting! Some of the Taiwan youths are really so hungry! they come early in the morning braving the typhoon just so they could get the floor area front seats! i was rubbed by their love for the Lord and so i decided i must give my 110%! I got the chance to mingle with the taiwanese! one of them even gave me a set of guitar strings the next day after we chatted, after i casually told him how my guitar string snapped when i brought it there. I felt so loved. God moved mightily during the 3 days of emerge! the presence of God descended the moment worship began! tears flowed, hearts were mended, lives are changed forever!

I feel so honoured to be part of this team of people whom God is using to change the nation of Taiwan! Indeed, God is raising up a generation of youths who will not be afraid of anything! they will take their world for Jesus! the Jeremiahs will arise because God will place His words into our mouths! His hands with our hands! His mind with ours! what a privilege it is for me to be a vessel that God is willing to use! Reinhard Bonke said in his book, God created us, so that He can use us as His extended hand on the earth to reach out to the world! We are God's plan A! if it fails, He would have nothing to fall back on! And this is the message that we are sent forth with, "Let my people Go!"

I pray that the fire of God will continue to burn within the hearts of the Taiwanese youth! I pray that the fire of God will be like the wildfires! It will spread throughout Taiwan! the youths will take their schools for Jesus! In the north, the south, the east and the west! I feel so honoured to be part of the revival! this mission trip has taught me alot of things! it has shown me what i had always wanted from day one! I want to see lives change! the way mine has been changed! I want to be used by God. I pray i will never do anything that would grieve the Holy Spirit because i want to live under an open heaven! and when i speak, the love of God will flow, the presence of GOd would be felt, In Jesus name!

Taiwan for Jesus!

over the many days there, i went to many places! I took many pictures! and i want to load them up but i cant do it here.. i might just start using multiply.com so i can blog at the same time to post up all my pics! I stayed with my brother at yang ming shan! the view is simply breath-taking! the lights from the city formed the never-ending sea of lights! very beautiful sight to behold! it reminded me of when God spoke to me.. "as far as your eyes can see.. one day, one day u shall see the multitudes coming to me! they shall lift up their hands and proclaim the salvation of My hands!"

one of the nights, i even brought my guitar up the mountain and played there.. there is no better place to do that! i wished i had a yang ming shan behind my house so i can go up and just spend some time of aloneness, closer to heaven!! maybe someday mount everest! even closer=) haha..

when emerge ended, i was happy and sad..happy that many lives are so changed...sad because it seemed like i just arrived the day before and now it was over. But i know that its also the beginning of something great that God is doing! Amen!

I went to tai chung, which was 4 hours drive in total! travelling at a constant speed of 150-180km/h was really thrilling! imagine i had to use the toilet and i controlled for almost 1.5hrs! its mind blowing! actually tormenting. taichung is somewhat similiar to taipei, but things are cheaper there..esp the food! ! i ate soooooooooooo much during this trip! now that i am back, i guess its time to diet! =p

of course i got to know new friends, and i met my old friends! i am really happy to be back but am also sad that i wouldnt be able to see them for a long time!! but thats ok.. because someday, i will see them in heaven! its only a temporary seperation! =O

more about my trips and expeditions=p later....

my overall rating of this trip.... 10/10!!

I would have regretted soo much if i had decided not to go! thank God i went!

i am very expectant of what God is going to do in and through me!

i'm leaving on a jetplane.. dunno when i'll be back again... =)

Taiwan!! here i come!! Revival is coming!!

i pray i dun put on weight!!

bye all!! see u on 20th!

The church is not a pleasure boat, but a lifeboat! All hands on deck from the captain to the cook for saving souls!

-Reinhard Bonke

been a long but fruitful week!!!

Wow! yesterday service was good! thugh i was feeling a little physically tired because i only slept for about 4 hrs the day before! anyhow, it was awesome! God wants to promote me! from where i am to where He wants me to be! be it in Spiritual life, emotional life, and finances.. God is good!

after service, i was stranded! because it was pouring! this is the only draw back about riding.. apart from that, riding is great fun! i was with Pheobe, Angel and Elle.. we were just chatting at foyer 3 outside expo hall 8. you know, they were selling waffles... smells great and it was so tempting! but it is also very expensive! $2!!! outside only $1.20 max. guess the rental of the stall must be very ex thats why!

after that, we decided not to wait for the rain to stop... we decided to take MRT to town! zzzz... but it was not too bad lar.. very relaxing on the train. no need to check blindspot, no need to clutch in clutch out.. no need to look left look right.. just pure relaxation! anyway, tmr i will be able to take MRT again! because i will be going to TAIWAN!!!!! YIPEEEEeeeeeee... but that also meant that i wouldnt be able to blog for a week! maybe i can..but provided my bro and i decide to stay in at home instead of shopping and visiting taiwan.. hah.. happy=)

oh yeah, yesterday i really ate alot! we celebrated Elle birthday! we went to Mr. Bean cafe at selegie area. we ate pizzas, chicken cutlet, lagzania(wrong spelling) and after that, we had american cheesecake! everything was so cheesy!! FATTENING! now i feel so guilty! its ok..i will continue to excersize when im back from Taiwan! =P Taiwan taiwan!!! yeah yeah yeah!! i love Taiwan!!

I am very excited! because i know that God has a great destiny for my life! i am so blessed! I thank God for placing Godly men and women in my life! yesterday, bro suraj wrote me a letter! A LETTER FROM BRO SURAJ!!!??! how shocking is that!? anyway, hes really a great and mighty warrior of God! thats why pst Kong can put him in charge of jurong west building! he is really a very encouraging man! very anointed and a man who fears God. so blessed to be able to be-friend him. I know i will be able to learn alot from him too! i will press in to his life because i know that this friendship is God-sent! greater years ahead!

everything thats happening around me is truly so exciting! God is seemingly restoring to me the things that i had been missing out over the past 4 years! the years which the devil had taken from me, God will restore it all to me! I am hopeful...my heart is filled with so much joy! I know that each day the joy of the Lord will become my strength! each day will be a new encounter with the person in the Holy Spirit! Lord You are amazing! i pray that never never let me go no matter what happens! you are my everything! all else are secondary!

I pray that this coming taiwan emerge would be a time of great encountering with the Lord! i pray that i can be a blessing to the people of Taiwan! I pray that my relationship with people around can grow to the next level! there are so many things that i have yet to see! God open my eyes to see Your glory! open my heart to perceive what you have installed for my life! open my ears to hear Your word! truly theres none that compares to Your majesty and power! You are omnipotent! You are all-powerful in my life! therefore of whom shall i be afraid! I pray for Your portion in my life! I pray for Your anointing in my life! I pray for Your miracles to follow my prayers...let everything that my hand touches be blessed! Holy Spirit Your gifts and calling upon my life, they are irrevocable! You are my paracletos! the one who walks alongside me! guide me daily..let Your glory shine upon my life! let me come to You with a clean heart and a sensitive Spirit. take all of me for ALL of You. may You increase continually daily in my life.. and i decrease! I promise You all glory in Jesus name....

love you so much abba! no one can take Your place!


running with Jesus is my joy!

HooRay!!! God is Good!!!!

Today Cell group was great! Bro Darren came and preached! i felt it was solid! It was alot about dealing with bitterness and disapointments!
Its true how things can tend to discourage us so much.. esp so when it doesnt turn out the way we wanted it to! events... hmm..i seldom struggle with that..birthday or no birthday celebration...i am ok...people is a major factor.. i have learned something over the years..usually, the people whom you are close to wouldnt be there with you always..new group of friends will be found and bonded. but those that stayed throughout the good the bad and the ugly are the ones who you shuld cherish! no expectations brings forth no discouragements.. haha..not really biblical but its quite true. But theres one friend who never dissapoints! thats Jesus! He is always there..

He strengthens me when I am weak
He guides my feet when I can't see
He watches me when I'm alone
He nourishes my body when I am starved
He cherishes me when I'm worthless
He holds my hand when I am Scared
He comforts me when I am lost
He Waits for me however long
He Loves me though I am wretched
He is my friend though he's my king
He is my heavenly father though I am a lost child

quite good huh.. just now small John suddenly messaged me that. i thought its really good and worth a read!

anyhow, today i have learnt that in all situations, good, bad and again the ugly, always run towards God! and begin to see from His viewpoint! I pray that i can really be someone like moses who is close to God. someone whom the Lord will show the way and not just the acts! another thing that really caused me to think was this phrase...

"only when you totally throw yourself to God, then you can receive the total experience!"

true isnt it? thats why i want to give my all from now on! i dun expect a bed of roses.. but i know that God will take me on a great journey! and the one coming up would be my trip to Taiwan!! how exciting!! my FIRST mission trip!!!!!! hoooorayyyy!!!

oh yeah.. a phrase was brought to my remembrance during cg!!
the greater the destiny, the greater the trials!"

I believe that God has a great destiny for my life! no man can add to it nor take it away! because it belongs to God and me.. period. Its priceless, its my everything! i will fulfill it even if it means giving my all.. i pray for strength!

Job 13:15
- Though He slay me, yet i will trust in Him. Even so, i will defend my own ways before Him! He also shall be my salvation!

amazing attitude! i pray that i will be as Job.. who fears the Lord more than anything!

GOD IS AN AWESOME GOD!!!! AND I LOVE YOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART!

=)

tmr i have to teach early in the morning again! i have already given about 7 students to guoliang.. but it seems that new students are still being added! God is good! hehe=) more students means more money! more money means more means.. more means means more KTV! hahaha.. joking joking! more money means more future mission trips!! and more blessings to people around me!

I pray that God will once again raise my dad to the next level in his life! was just fellowshipping with him... guess what??! my dad used to be the top 7 people in AIA insurance back in his time! I am praying for open doors for him to get back into insurance! the past serves as experience which money can never buy.. i believe that if one is 'zai', no matter where he go, he will be 'zai'!

abba pls prosper my daddy! show him that there is a God in my prayer! and that God is going to become his someday in Jesus name! Amen.

i am expectant for so much that God is going to do! I know He is always with me.. i don't care what men thinks.. what i care is what He thinks! someday, i will stand before millions! and i will witness the greatest number of souls being added to Him in a single day! In Jesus name!

exciting exciting!!!

watch it devil... here i come!

Jesus does not choose us for what we are, but what He makes us!

-Reinhard Bonke

here i come!!!

woah... been 2 days since i blog.. anyway here goes..

yesterday i went to eat chilli crabs!!! been so long since i ate that! and its really nice dipping my whole hand into the gravy! yummm... and today my mum brought back some D24 durians!! temptations temptations!! i will eat a little...jus a little.. i promise. =P

ok..i am getting pretty excited about my Taiwan trip!! Its been 4 years since i said that i will save up to go! and finally, i am going and for a very good cause! TAIWAN EMERGE!! God is good! Its really very exciting because its my first missions trip! and more than that, i can get to see all my taiwan friends! i will be staying with my brother Yuren too! he lives in the town area...something like our orchard road! wow!! 5 more days and counting down! although i wouldnt be able to shop much this trip because i am really out on cash, i know i will enjoy myself tremendously! and above all, i pray for encounters with God! I pray that i will be a blessing to the taiwanese people!

recently, i am reading this book called, "hell empty heaven full" by Reinhard Bonke! I just started and already i feel that it is very good. in fact i want to bring it to Taiwan to read when im on the plane and back. hopefully i can finish the book before i arrive back in SG! I know somehow it will benefit me! I pray for a renewed mind! as a man thinks, so is he!

recently, i have been listening to a song in chinese called, reaching for you. its translated from the original by hillsongs. the words are so beautiful! and if i'm not wrong, my bible school classmate Si En is singing the female part! VERY NICE! and these are words, (English)

I cant believe the way your love has got a hold on me
each morning i wake to find you near
You lift me above my fears
and set my feet on solid ground
all of my days belong to You

and i breathe in the breath of life that fills my heart
You are my all consuming fire

and i stand here before You
in wide open wonder amazed
at the glory of You

the power of heaven
revealing Your purpose in me
as i'm reaching for You.

BEAUTIFUL SONG with such beautiful lyrics!

I pray that just as the song says, i will wake up every morning to find God near. in chinese, they translated as, i will wake up every morning to draw near to You. wow.. i pray that as each day passes, the hunger for the presence of GOd will only grow stronger and stronger! In Jesus name. God is a good God! I am really expectant for God to move mightily in my life! I know that there are still things along the way that God will deal with me..and i pray out of it, i will come forth stronger, to become who God wants me to be! Amen.

Amazing!

Lord i pray in my lifetime, show me Your face.. Your greatness, Your wonders, Your anointing, Your glory! I want to witness the greatest amount of souls coming to you in a single meeting! and i pray that Your promises upon my life are Yes and Amen. It will not return to You void! because You have placed upon my life a seed of the Highest quality! let me be a good steward of whatever that You will place into my hands! thank you Lord!

Living for Jesus is my honour.. to do His will is my delight.. to die for Him is my privilege!


looking forward to amazing days ahead! every step i take will belong to You!

Why does God use one minister more than another? When you have two stoves, one is hot and the other is cold which one will you use to make a cup of tea?

-Reinhard Bonke

When you preach to the saved, you produce conferences. When you preach to the lost, you produce crusades.

-Reinhard Bonke

Exciting!!!

just came back from the gym!! today's excersize was very fruitful!! did a 5km run...and 20 chest press.. hahah.. very very tired now..but i feel good. hopefully before i go Taiwan i can lose at least 5kg =P hahaha.. pray la pray la.. God let my excersizes be fruitful! let the calories from daily intake of food dissappear! In Jesus name!

later i am going to teach Asher.. and i am collecting the fees! because of the Taiwan trip, i must save every cent i've got! i am also trying to appeal for the town council fines!! God is able to help me waive it off! anyhow, i am running low on finances!! sigh.. so many htings this month! of all things, Elle birthday is coming too! she is my priority! i just pray that i will have a little excess after everything for Taiwan.. all i ask is to at least have $200..so i can spend in Taiwan at least on the food! hehe.. i lose 5kg to go there to put it back on! crazy idea....

after teaching Asher, i am going to meet my ACS buddies. really thank God for all their friendships! known them for almost a decade..some more... and over the years, we became closer and grow together as believers! i remember the times back then in school! we used to go for cg together and we were all from bro Chris cg!!! how memorable were those times!! after church back in hollywood theatre, we would go to katong for laksa and cs!! and then take mrt back together! over these years, God really forged between us such close bonds! And i believe that for each of us, God has a great destiny and calling for us to fulfill! lets really run this race well and to end it off well! no matter what, dun trade your salvation for anything in the world! especially not 30 pieces of silver! amen? =)

i still remember that experience during altar call last weekend! the tremendous presence of God! I really pray that every single night, i can have such encounters with the Lord. the fire of God must continue to burn each day and more so when the end is approaching! God is returning soon! every single day, more and more people are hearing about Jesus! and thats GREAT! everyday, signs are pointing towards Jerusalem where the heart of God is! everyday, the bible is revealing itself to be true and if thats so, Jesus will return very soon! I pray for the fear of the Lord to be upon my life! everything i do, every word i say, i want it to reflect Jesus in my life! ne day when I meet God face to face, i want to present myself blameless before Him, to be called a good and faithful servant of the Lord! and to enter into the eternal joy of God!

Lord let today be fruitful in Jesus name! let the fellowship bring forth love, joy, peace of the Holy Spirit! let each edify one another as iron sharpens iron.

Lets have an adventure Abba!!!

gosh..i jus came back from jogging 4km!! .. i feel like i wanna faint...so long never excersize...

i realised that its so easy to EAT!! but its so difficult to excersize and to lose wight...

i must lose weight!! i am bloating like a balloon!!

Im going jogging Lord!! multiply the fruits of my labour!!! =P

I shall press on towards the goal!!! In Jesus name!

such a fruitful day today!!! the service was tremendous! I felt such tangible presence of God i have never felt in a long long while!! Today pastor preached about Peter again! about the 3 times Jesus asked him if he loved Him!! God was restoring back to peter wad the devil had stolen away! wow! that was wad God spoke to me through raymond that time! Amazing!

Today pastor layed hands on all the leaders and helpers whoa re feeling weary! i responded but not because i was feeling weary! i just wanted to be empowered once more to do greater works in Jesus name! and indeed, i encountered the Lord! I dunno why but there was this very awkard but comfortable sensation. i was trembling yet was still.. i felt that God was just in front of me!! This feeling is one that i would never forget for the rest of my life.. i knew that God was still not through with my life! and then pastor prayed and spoke a word over us! I felt that the word was shared for ME!!! Today Pst Tan during altar call, shared about how God's calling upon me being irrevocable! He said that no weapon formed against me shall prosper! these are the exact same things that God spoke to me clearly the past 3 nights! yesterday during Reinhard Bonke conference, God spoke the same to me! His calling upon my life is irrevocable!! today i finally couldnt hold back no more...i felt so loved by Him! i wept like a baby and it really felt marvellous! Jesus is so interested in me! and i am so in love with Him! Amen!

I feel so charged up with the fire of God now! I feel that God is in the process of lifting my faith level to another level! I know that God wants me to operate in another dimension! and i know with Him, i can do ALL things! indeed, this is truly the burning bush experience! I pray that with each passing day, when the going gets tough, I will love the Lord even more! His hands shall be upon me..to guard and to keep me! his rod and staff shall comfort me! with His rod and staff, i shall witness great miracles and His power...and it will inturn encourage me.. just as what the Lord said, "Lo, I am with you till the ends of the age". PTL!

today i am so happy, everything seemed so fruitful! I went to meet my talentime friends after svc at ser koon house. we spent many hours together playing games and celebrating birthday. but whats the most exciting part was.... at about 9pm... one new friend messaged me!!! he wrote.. "thank you for listening to me". I felt so much joy... for so long i felt so futile..but God is turning things around! my life shall make impact everywhere i set my feet on! I pray that the fire of God will continue to burn ever brighter and rub every human beings that i am in contact with!

God is good! wow!

yesterday, i bought a book written by Reinhard Bonke! hell empty heaven full! I pray that it will bless me and be effective in my witnessing to people! Truly, hell is meant only for one fellow thats the devil.. and heaven is meant for all the people! keep on keeping on...never lose heart in evangelism! because i have heard my leader shared once about our lives being like a bottle! like all bottles, there is a cap. and each time we sow into a life, we are slowing turning on the cap...someday, the cap will come lose and then the love of God can flow right in! Press on! keep on keeping on!

i am off to pray now.. i know that God will speak to me tonight..right here.. right now!


abba, thanks for Your wonderful mercy upon my life!

Amazing Night!! Reinhard Bonke is my hero..Jesus reigns!!!

Today was fantastic!! I really thank God for, me being at the right place,at the right time, with the right man!! wooot! today i managed to seat 5 rows from the front! i was that near to the man of God! He preached such a powerful message! clearly, i knew that God was speaking to me about my life.. how He wants to use me.. and today, God brought about a restoration of my dreams and visions once again! PTL!!

Today Pst Reinhard Bonke preached about the fire of the Holy Spirit upon our lives! that enable us to stand before kings and nations, to be bold and not intimidated! because the gospel is not apologetic! Its truth and it will set people free! not because its historic means its history!! Its the living Word of God.. its God made flesh through the Word! anyhow, God was awesome!

one revelation that i had today... "Jesus save sinners to save sinners!" God meant for creation to reach out to one another! the cycle will continue till the day of the 2nd coming of the Lord! Indeed, Christ is needed for all nations! I need the fire of God to come upon me daily! to have a passion for the lost! the temperature must run high! God is demanding back from the devil what rightfully belongs to Him! its like when you go to a fruit shop and buy a bunch of bananas... with the receipt... it rightfully belongs to you! and Jesus bought us all with a price! we are all rightfully the Lord's! someday, the devil will spend lonesome eternity in hell all alone..becos as what Reinhard Bonke says.. "hell to the devil..and heaven for the people!" amen!

today, i really felt something i have not felt for so long... something that was buried so deep within me seems to be dug out again..the desire to win the lost! the dream to stand before thousands one day in the mission fields! the vision to see the sick healed under the power of Almighty God! all these seem very far... but with God, ALL things are possible! If God had indeed called me, the calling is irrevocable! no man can take it away!

I really have a desire to be a healing evangelist..to go to all the world to preach the gospel and to save the lost! to pray for the sick and see them healed in Jesus name! God...multiply my years that i lost to wandering.. multiply my years which the locust had stolen away! open the heavens over my life! take away the shame that the devil had placed into my life to cripple me so badly..the chains of bondage are now broken in Jesus name! i cant purrr like a cat now when thousands are losing their lives to the devil! I must roar the roar of faith like the Lion of Judah! because the violent shall take it by force!

The burning bush experience happened once only for Moses! but that was all it took for God to change a timid man to a bold conqueror! I am a warrior send by the Lord! I will speak to circumstances to be removed and it shall in Jesus name! because Jesus lives in me! the words that i speak, God will bring it to pass! I will not bow to multitudes of critics!! because the Lord + me makes the majority! and thats final. If the Lord is for me, then tell me... WHO can be against me? if pharoah was alive again and God send me to him...I know the miracles of God will take place again! pharoah has to lose all his workforce in one single day again! the red sea shall split once more..the chariots of the world will be destroyed again! because whats of the world can never come against whats of the Spirit. I pray this gets into your Spirit as much as it got into mine! With God, We form the majority!

God is in love with the church.. He is in love with me! and theres an important lesson to learn that is.. Never mess with a Man who is in love!! the devil will fight yes.. times of persecution will come...but it shall not abide! because the church shall rise up like a stove thats burning so hot! and the demonic flies nor the devil can sit on it! even if he does...he will get a swollen bum..and that only means that..its bigger and its easier for us to kick. both ways...he lose. therefore rise up church! be who God wants you to be! don't be apologetic about what you preach! because Jesus wasnt!

Oh how exciting it is! I know that God will raise up men and women all around the world who would take the nations by storm! I pray that i will be that one man who would do whatever the Lord calls. I pray that the fire of God will burn ever brighter with each passing day! I pray that i can be a light that will shine so bright because Jesus lives in me! Amen.

i am so tired physically now! but my Spirit is so alive! Theres something more than this! God is not through..i know..

soften my heart this day i pray...

In Jesus mighty name!

WHeeeeeee weeeeeeeee yeah!!!

a long day it had been! today marks the start of an exciting weekend coming up...!! few hours from now, i will be in the same stadium as the man whom i had always regarded as my Spiritual father even tho he doesnt know me!! I have learned so much from him..received alot of his discipleship over the internet! simply love him! i pray that one day i can get to have coffee with him...somehow..someway? God will make a way=) its really exciting!

today i had cell group! I led praise and worship and took the offering. I felt it was ok for the p&w because before that we prayed alittle while! and i lost my voice!! gosh... i kept praying in my heart that i wouldnt lose my voice halfway which happened many times before.. if you know me, i seldom sing...i actually scream...becos i like to hear myself..not like as in like but jus like...arghhh...anyway, praise was ok only...didnt feel 'it' coming from the people. I thank God because we are fortunate. we have 2 guitarists in cg. so musically, its always quite good=p jus that i felt a little drowned. someday soon perhaps we could use a few mics. hehe..then need to raise up soundman.. then probably some ushers at the door..then some security, some lighting crew, some bookstore.. ok...thats a church not cg.

so lame.. hehe. ok...worship didnt go the way i planned it to be. but it has always been like that. i love to change the sequence halfway through..thank God for good guitarist..hah. I think as a worship leader, one impt factor is FLOW. be very sensitive to the leading of the Holy Spirit. so lots for me to learn becos somehow i feel that its quite a struggle before we can feel the presence of God. meanwhile, i will continue to pray up my life of course! becos these are not perfected by human wisdom...but the anointing=) how i wish someday, i can be like Benny Hinn..the moment i enter the house, people start to weep..tears of joy and conviction! wow. I know thats possible!

ok...offering was good. i shared the word from 1 chro...it is when king David challenged the people to give an offering to build the house of God. the people were willing... they came with golds,silvers,precious stones! but more important than a willing heart in giving, we need to know that it is a privilege to give to God!! after that, King David wrote a psalm to God..expressing his thanksgiving.. he said, "for who are we to be able to give so willingly to You..to give You something that belonged to You..." AMAZING! i tell you.. when you give to the Lord, deem it a privilege! not every one can have this oppotunity! amen? oh..thats what i call preaching!(pst kong) haha..

the word was about... UFM => united for missions!! ANd yeah!! i am going for my first mission trip of my life!! tho not what i always wanted thats africa, its ok! I am going to Taiwan!! my beloved asian country where some of my closest friends are! i miss them all and i am so excited to see them=) esp my taiwan brother, yuren. i have not seen him for agessssss!!! he use to take care of me back in ACS when i was a xiao hun hun.. little gangster. haha.. i really treat him as my real life brother.. there are only afew in my life. another is raymond. another is arton. i have close buddies tho...but these are really close people to me! known them since forever! heh.. Taiwan for Jesus!! Evangelist Samuel is coming! watch out devil.. =.=

i am quite sick of teaching on sat mornings! becos i always dread waking up so early to teach! my bike frens are out now!! yes now!! and i got to stay home because i dun wan to slp too late in case i cant wake up tmr! u see.. being a teacher isnt easy too.. you have to deal with not just the students...but also their parents. its like buy 1 get one free. sometimes 2. hais..but i must say, when i see them improving...its really very joyous! and i mus admit... when it comes to pay day, normally you will see me walking around with my lips spreaded so widely..nearly touching my ears at both ends=p

today my ACS buddy called me.. he just came back from BMT..(army) and he was complaining.. i kept laughing.. only to remember that its my turn soon..sigh. I love the army! ok i jus lied..but i believe it would somehow be memorable. k....counting down to my botak head days..

God is really so amazing..why? because He jus is! i know tomorrow, i will have an encounter with Him! for 4 years..i wanted to go for Reinhard Bonke conference! but somehow along the way, i always decide not to go..i was really like Jonah. but i know God had called me a time such as this! Dendoshi Samuel cumi!! <= what does that mean? its jap-eng-hebrew. so slowly figure out! haha

Lord speak to me.. Grant me a very discerning heart.. a heart thats pure and free from sin! Jesus You are my King! my Lord and everything! Holy Spirit.. You are my everlasting friend..i can lose all the rest if u wan me to...but I pray in my lifetime till the day i see you face to face, You will never ever let me go. You promise to be my companion for life.. You are the paraclete! the one who walks alongside me. I wan to see the power of God move so evidently in my life. Your calling upon me is irrevocable! do not let Your words go back to you void! Your promises are for eternal! and i embrace it dearly.. Lord i have a holy dissatisfaction! I want to see more of Your hands moving through me.. touch my hands... let whatever i lay my hands on prosper! let my hands be Your hands of healing! You are the God who heals.. and I am Your vessel for Your healing touch to flow.. In Jesus name...

Lets have an adventure tomorrow!