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MISUNDERSTOOD yet again....

2007-09-16T03:39:00.000+08:00

today when i received the message.. i was disturbed yet there was a voice that told me.. "Cedric..do not resist..do not retaliate..let go and let Me.."

there are so many things that i wanted to say but i guess it is not needed now. Whatever it is, i just want to say to that special someone.. No, it was never my intention to move this direction. What you presumed is just not what it is.. I am sorry to have caused hurt but i know i cant blame you for thinking this way. I am also just human. There is nothing for me to benefit out of THIS whole saga. If u think i am less hurt.. you are wrong. i am trying to recuperate from it as well.

Been spending alot of time with my ACS cliques. Really thank God for such faithful friends. Raymond, i just want to say that i really really do love and appreciate you as a bro. constantly there for me through the good, the bad and the ugly. despite my rotten state, you never despised me yet you shown so much faith and hope in me. This alone, i am truly thankful. Thank you bro.

Been awhile since i gone to service and today seemed to be a set up by Daddy. I got Your message abba. I am learning. I am growing to be a man. To be whom You want me to be. Help me and never let me go.

My heart has been heavy for so long. It is rather frozen and stiff now. Nothing at this time would really affect me because i am already so. I am just very very physically and mentally tired. I guess i need rest.

I feel so lost.... its dark.....really dark...

2007-09-12T01:30:00.000+08:00

i feel so lousy about myself... its been o long since i unloaded and i guess its high time i do it if not i might just explode.

many things happened this past mnths.. i changed. no i do not even recognise myself sometimes when i look into the mirror. many people must be very very dissappointed.. i did not mean to but i am only human. sometimes i ask myself what do i really what? what else do i lack? i have a gf who loves me dearly..willing to walk thrugh anyrough patches with me yet i kept allowing my heart to stray. who am i really? am i even human? beneath this thing u know as cedric.. there are so many dark hidden secrets that only the Man up there knows.. to those i have hurt. i am truly sorry.

just came back from cruise and spoke to my boss and my ldr.. realised there are so many things in my life which needs urgent attention to.. boss.. i know.. but i am afraid to face them. i do not dare to try any morebecause i am so afraid to fail again.. whers my strength? whers my courage? its lost.. somewher out there where i cant even see the slightest sign of it.

Daddy..i really miss u..i just dun have the courage to face u anymore. i wished i was like king David..but i am just me. i'm not even sure if you would still use me because i am not what i am supposed to be. just dun let me go............

2007-03-19T14:19:00.000+08:00

once i have turned my face from thee
yet you sought me and you clensed me
made me whole again

Jesus my savior, my beloved and friend
your praises i bring
from my heart i will sing

o draw me, o draw me away
Messiah today to your presence to stay
o Jesus now change me and mould me
that i can be, ever more true to thee

short entry @ the office.

2007-03-19T14:06:00.000+08:00

Shalom! :P

its 2pm and here i am letting my mind wander away @ the office. :S

so instead of idling, i shall blog!

btw, my pastor always says: "an idle mind is the devil's workshop"

was just meditating about what pastor phil pringle shared.
Faith to me is more than an outward burst of emotion which causes you to do things which you otherwise would never have done. It is an attitude.

when you have the "God-in-me-can" attitude, thats Faith.

So how do i position myself in the market place? should i stand alongside with the other people whose faith is in themselves? or should i place my faith in the Almighty? of course it has to be Him! because God and i forms the majority! Hallelujah!

recently i have been thinking about many things. how to live a life thats in accordance to God's Word. how to position myself under the blessings of God. How to be strong and to carry out mighty exploits. but more importantly, learning to find joy in my salvation.

I pray that as i continue to ponder over these issues, God will speak to me and direct me in accordance to His Word.

2007-03-06T17:17:00.000+08:00

There is a longing, only you can fill
a raging tempest, only you can still
my heart is thirsty Lord, to know you as i'm known
drinking fromt he river that flows before Your throne.

Take me deeper, deeper in love with You
Jesus hold me close in Your embrace
take me deeper, deeper than i've ever been before
i just want to love You more and more
how i long, to be deeper in love

prodigal son's post..

2007-03-05T15:27:00.000+08:00

God is good all the time and all the time God is good!!

yeah. i am back! was just reading my old post and it really really brought back to remembrance many of the promises which i held so close to my heart! I thank God i kept my online diary. It serves as my reminder and i pray that whenever i feel down and out, it can encourage me to pick myself up and run this race again! indeed, we ought to fight the good fight of faith! Amen!

time really flies. i am already 4 months old as an agent now. As the day draws nearer to my enlistment to police academy(eh baaaa), everything seems to be moving at an ultra fasst pace.. :S but it also meant that, it allows me more room to put my faith in the Holy Spirit. So Lord, here i am.. use me! Lets continue our adventure where i left off.

heres one of my all time favorite worship song.. the lyrics are exactly what my heart's cry is about!

YOU ARE FOREVER IN MY LIFE
YOU SEE ME THROUGH THE SEASONS
COVERED ME WITH YOUR HANDS
AND LEAD ME IN YOUR RIGHTEOUSNESS
AND I, LOOK TO YOU
AND I, WAIT ON YOU

I SING TO YOU LORD
A HYMN OF LOVE
FOR YOUR FAITHFULNESS
TO ME
I'M CARRIED IN
EVERLASTING ARMS
YOU NEVER LET ME GO
THROUGH IT ALL

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Daddy Abba God.. you are so amazing. times when i was faithless, you remained faithful. times when i strayed, you draw me near. ever so faithfully waiting by my bedside wanting to commune with me while i lazed on my bed and slowly drifting off to sleep. I'm sorry for all that i have failed to do. I am sorry for all that i have done. won't you take me and mould me once again. Let your hands see me through every circumstance in my life. I need the power of God all over me because i am weak. your Word says that when i am weak You are strong! when i am poor You are rich! Jesus, be my guide. Holy Spirit, You are my paracletos! the one who walk alongside me! so therefore walk with me. Speak to me. take out the blockage in my ears. break the heart of stone and put in a heart of flesh to feel you. flow through me. move through me.

thank you Daddy God. I feel ever safe whenever you are near. I just want to be where you are, dwelling daily in Your presence. I dun want to worship from afar, i just want to be with You!

hear the cries of my heart this day. Restore to me the days of my wanderings. restore to me a heart for the lost. restore to me the joy of my salvation! Let Your promises upon my life be Yes and Amen. Let me see in my lifetime, a great number of souls saved through the Holy Spirit who will work through me! increase upon me the favour of men, the favour of Yours! thank you Lord for everything. love you so much.

In Jesus name..

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To my buddy:

just want to appreciate you for being who you are. a person with such a teachable heart. always loving God. always being there. though sometimes its hard to fully say everything out with my mouth. but you know how much you mean to me! there is a reason God placed you in my life! indeed, we are partners in crime. to plunder hell and to populate heaven! the devil is fighting a losing battle. and thank God we are on His side. He chose us to be! we were meant to be!

thank you buddy. I know we have a long way more to go! lets allow God to continue to bring this relationship to the next level constantly breaking through with Him! In due season, we will reap if we do not lose heart! wait, i say on the Lord :)

difficult times will surely come, times when you are in darkness, times when you are so afraid. But God wants you to know that, "trust in Me. when you cant see My hands, trust My heart. I will show you my deliverance. How i brought the children of Isreal out of Egypt will be how i shall deliver you. the devil will come against you one way, but he will flee seven ways. because i have called you and anointed you. You will be as the light on the lamp, a city on a hill that cannot be hidden! therefore do not be afraid. only believe. when temptations comes, it shall only make you stronger. do not escape for i have already provided a way of escape for you. I have your refuge. a strong tower. the righteous runs to me and are safe! So be strong and very courageous. times of adversities will come. But i shall lift you up. I will bear you up with my hands. I will not allow your foot to strike the rocks. For i have chosen you. I have called you for a time such as this. I will be your hands and your mouth. You shall indeed go to ALL whom i will send you to! And then you will know that I, the Lord is with you. wait on me. wait, i say"

this is an awesome day!

Hallelujah! :)

wadpenning wadpenning!??!?

2006-10-30T03:01:00.000+08:00

woah! lonnnnggggg week it had been! but fruitful! 2 days ago i was with my classmates! and guess what!?? they are gonna sign 2 programs with me! amazing! the momentum is coming!!! slowly but surely! wow.. so exciting!

the testimonies of the church mates were fantastic! how God prospered them in the midst of an economic downturn and how God brought their businesses from one level to the next! this 2006 arise and build, i'm gonna try the hands of God once again.. but i do know one thing.. when i am not able to see God's hands...i will trust His heart. I know his desire is for me to prosper! i will drive my dream car! live in my dream home! i will be an insurance tycoon!

many of my friends kept asking me if i was going to be in this business for long? of course it is YES! with capital Y! I have seen the rewards of this business.. i love to meet new people! i love the feeling of achieving targets! weekly target for myself is to meet 5 people and close at least 3! If i can see it, i can have it! So God, unless u come through for me... it wouldnt be possible!

this coming 18,19,20 gonna be a short holiday for myself! going with some old friends either to batam, JB , oh might jus end up booking a hotel downtown to chill and relax and withdraw from this extremely highly complex world we live in. its our way of "enlightenment"! haha.. anyhow, looking forward to it! and coming December, going to Jakarta with my girlfriend, and also to JB with my colleagues! hoho.. eventful indeed!

so...its pretty late now.. will blog again soonnn..

ciaoz all!

2006-10-27T03:29:00.000+08:00

almost done up=) fast.. but can be faster!

2006-10-27T03:27:00.000+08:00

my cute new toy! but it has to make way for my new laptop! hahah

Finally!

2006-10-27T03:24:00.000+08:00

aloha! its been soooooooooooooooooooo super duper long since i posted!! and its really because i was super duper busy!

ok! so whats up?!! hows everyone doing? guess i lost 90% of my readership due to long intervals of each posts=p

anyhow, this past month was truly hectic for me!

i took the most number of exams in my life combined together! but it was all fun.. (yeah..right)

I met soooo many people! many of whom i had always wanted to and my current job gives me every excuse to meet them! and to rebuild many which were once glorious! haha. and yeah, i am now a qualified financial service consultant!

God has been good to me! despite of all my hectic schedule, He never failed to encourage me, empower me and of course educate me=)

My job is amazing! i am enjoying every single part of it! just not so when i have to wait so long to close a case! zzzz
my boss who is also my leader has high expectations for me! target is very high!!! arghhh.. quite stressful... but its good. I must start well! my colleagues are fantastic too! they are mostly from church by the way! so no politics whatsoever! =)

over the many weeks of training, i've really learnt so many things! its indeed very important to be very wise in our expenditures and simply put it, to be a good steward of wads given to us! many do not think twice about spending but when it comes to savings, they have entirely no clue of how to start. and of course thats where i will come in=) call me, talk to me.. I can help you get started!

been going to office, taking exams after exams, meeting people after people, teaching one after another.. its all pretty exhausting for me. sometimes it amazes me how i am able to do so many things with so little time that i have. I really miss having a gooooooood lonnnnnnngggg sleep.. I have been thinking of how i can achieve success! I want to drive my dream car! I am not satisfied when the people of the world are all prospering and here i am riding a small bike! I wan my FAIRLADY!

I will work hard.. i will work smart.. the rest is up to God to open up doors.

THINK BIG AND YOU'LL BE BIG! NO ONE KILLS AN ELEPHANT WITH A POP GUN! -Ben Feldman

2006-10-27T03:07:00.000+08:00

testing... =p

dun wan to post wrongly into my sister account again =/

Call to Me, and I will answer you!

2006-09-23T13:10:00.000+08:00

God...let me pass my M9 today!

"For I have placed upon you the seed of the highest quality..."

Its time to shine... its time to show the world what a God-fearer, God-lover, God's-ambassador agent looks like! So Empower me to succeed!! I will be the best agent for your glory Lord!

winners never quit, and quitters never wins=)

Timing

2006-09-22T16:27:00.000+08:00

YEAHHH!!! tonight after CG, will be my first night out with the RVF people!! hoho.. so yeah...i passed my TP! really by the Grace of God. there were many who failed and when i was in the circuit, i was feeling very unconfident man! but its over... I passed. Period.

Indeed, God is a good God!! Through it all, i know that He has been and will always be with me! Recent months, i have been quite tight financially... sigh...praying for my pays to come in. Of course it is all because of my bigger bike. just to do it up, i spent quite ABIT! and guess what, i might be exchanging bike with another guy. Droooolllsss... his bike is extremely poweerrrr! i really believe that every gear that bike also can pop and maintain a wheelie man! sweeeeet. Lets just see how it turns out.

oh yeah, tmr will be my 4th attempt in my M9! I need to pass it this time round! I've got no time left! the last time round i think i missed the passing mark by just afew marks lor! my mark range was 81-87.... passing mark is 88. my goodness. so near yet so far! but its ok..when i pass, i make sure i close more cases to cover my time lost! God is my deliverer... deliver me from this theory exams!!!! its driving me nuts! hahaha

In recent weeks, i have learnt a deeper meaning in timing. Its really a very important factor in everything! the bible says that, theres a season for everything! so timing is the factor! Be it in business, racing, purchasing etc etc..once you miss it, you missed it. but then again, some times, a good deal might not be the best. so again i say, wait for the right timing and everything will be so perfect!

praying that my M9 exams will clear smoothly tmr! pray that the questions that comes out would be those that i know how to do! In Jesus name!

Be Anxious for nothing!

2006-09-19T01:56:00.000+08:00

My Tp is in a few hours time from now!!! arghh..getting abit anxious...I really pray that i can pass! I must break the curse of failure in my life in Jesus name!

"Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayers and supplications, let your request be known to God.. and the peace of God that surpasses ALL understanding will keep your heart and mind through Christ Jesus!"

Woooooooo

2006-09-15T03:12:00.000+08:00

These 2 weeks has been so hectic! been so busy mugging, so busy doing so many things! but through it all, God is still a faithful God! ever so faithful... Abba God i love you!!!

this coming week is gonna be a big week for me! why? because im gonna retake my m9(long story as to why i fail! very tui!).. and also finally the long awaited class 2a TP!!!! YEAHHHH!!! at long last...after riding without power for so long!! people around me are all changing to bigger CCs!!! Kenny just changed to a CBR929!! Uncle tommy changed to a GSXR1000 k5!! and of course, of all the bikes... mine's the fastest.. =p (i'm dreaming...) so i pray that i can really pass smoothly and be on the road legally with my RVF! In Jesus name! Amen! =)

I have been flirting with the thought of getting a super motard / super moto!! DRZs are such nice looking, head turners! especially the off-road models! *Slurppssss*

so now i am really considering either.. 1)selling my wave and getting a older plate, or, 2) sharing another bike with Alex! but that might be quite siong for me! anyhow, heard alot of stories about dirt riding/ motorcross... sounds thrilling! i have one life to live..might as well live it to the fulless! I have God, and i live my life to the best of my abilities...Indeed its a life of no regrets! I wished all my friends around me can get to know my God and friend too! YOU MUST KNOW HIM IF NOT YOU WILL REGRET!!! that would really be anyone's greatest regret of their life!

hmmm..recently, invited back some of my ex-members back to church! when i see them coming back, i really feel so happy for them! I regard them as my younger brothers/sisters! its really not easy for someone whom have chosen to leave to come back again! it takes tremendous courage! but hey.. when you make this decision to come back, the whole..and i mean WHOLE heaven rejoices! so..treat what happened as a time of rest..but now that you are back, Go ALL out for Him! =)

so much to say because i have not blogged for almost 2 weeks!! so many things happened! i wished i culd type it all but i cant! everyday, i meet so many people! I realise that i really enjoy doing so! I want you all to know..theres only one cedric.. I wished i could spend more time with each of you.. but there are certain commitments in my life! so bear with me..trust me..we will have coffee soon! ok? wanna go gym also can! jio me! I must shed some weight..they have since beceme permanent residents above my hip area. even my 400cc bike became a 350cc because of that! hoho..

so anyway, tmr is CG day! sometimes, we might get tired physically along the way.. but i have learnt to take joy in all that i do. really... being happy is a choice. I choose to be happy. people think i am crazy because even when i fail my exams, i can laugh about it. Enjoy life because God meant it to be interesting, adventurous, exciting!

This is a new day, theres a new vision, so... REjoice! and be glad in it!

God is always a good God!

Wonderful! i passed i passed!

2006-09-01T13:17:00.000+08:00

woah!! been a long while sinced i blogged! why? because i was disciplining myself not to use the comp while i studied for my Module 5 exam! thank God i passed! yeah... 1 down 2 to go!

this past week had been great! 3 days of mugging.. been so long sinced i studied like this! its crazy.. im just not the study study type ya know.. =.=

God is so good as usual! financial blessings kept coming in! most of my students resumed lesson already! now i am waiting for a new group to start! if all things goes well, i can get a major increment in my monthly income! truly, as you tithe.. the windows of heaven will be open to you! last month when i tithed, i prayed secretly in my heart that God will increase my tithe amount! because i know when it does, it also mean that my income has too! it was low last month! but i know for this month, it will breakthrough because God is Jehovah Jireh! He is my provider!

many of my friends are so funny..during conversation, i found out that many are actually reading my blog! haha.. i think i got another calling..to be a writer. hahaha..nah kidding. maybe next time=p ok...then i asked them do they read often? and then they said... "haiyah, you are always writing about the God God thing...". then i realised that, God is really so real in my life. Its because i encountered God, that makes me typed what i typed and thus people read what they read. but its all good. because firstly, i will never stop praising God for who He is in my life.. and secondly, His portion for my life never stops flowing with abundance and adventures!

anyway, i just got back from the chalet with my company. really...nothing beats working in an environment of Godly company, values and love. last night only frankie, Justin and myself stayed over. we watched DVDs till the early hours of the morning! hahaa.. we watched Seoul Raiders, Brothers(very touching) and tried conquering another but then i fell asleep. IT was quite fun! nice view, nice food! oh yeah!!! i went to KTV too! been sick for sooooooo maaannnyyy daayyysssss.... argh. finally could sing..but then voice wasnt stable..because of flu. ok..i know..like what others say...cannot sing means cannot sing la. I never said i was a good singer...just cant fully enjoy myself when i am sick. It affects my performace a little. really la.

so tonights gonna be another longg nite..after cgm, gonna meet bro Suraj for coffee! then going back to the chalet to meet my boss and colleagues! how exciting..I pray that today's cgm will be a great time of moving in the Holy Spirit. time to unwind after studying and preparing my heart to go for another MANY days of mugging! argghh..

So Lord, speak to us today! Let everyone encounter you in such a special special way today! Its time for E214 to move up another level. Let your Word come into this group.. and the filth of the world will have to go out. purify your camp..burn within us a passion for Your name Lord! educate, encourage, and empower us Lord! in Jesus name!

yeahhhhhh............

and yeah...I want to sell my little friend away to change to a scrambleR!!! wooohoooo..how are my legs gonna reach the ground?? i dunno! but who cares.. thats what the gap in between the tire of the car and the frame of the car is for right? for shortter riders like us to rest our feet at traffic junctions! hohoho... anyway, XR4 here i come!!!!!!! yeahhhhhhhhhhhhh

Seasons of life

2006-08-24T23:21:00.000+08:00

Theres a time for everything! A time to sow...a time to reap...
Now is the time to Sow..In Due season, I will reap if i do not lose heart!

2006-08-24T01:44:00.000+08:00

God's Dream team! Empowered to succeed!

2006-08-24T01:42:00.000+08:00

Buddies for life!!!

thoughts... decisions... breakthroughs...

2006-08-23T02:47:00.000+08:00

been sick for the past 2 days... i think it must have been the business breakthrough dinner that chocolate fudge cake! but it was DELICIOUS! haha.. anyhow, Dr Bernard shared quite a bit..and i caught 2 main things...

1) Persistency
2) PAssion!

It is so important especially for me when i enter into the financial advising industry! why? because naturally, people wuldnt want to seat down with you for about 30mins to let you review their financial status or their monetary stewardship! so we need persistence to make them feel that we are here really to help. never to invade into their privacy.

Passion is THE main factor in everything! we must have this element especially in servicing and sales! what you are passionate about, others can sense! If i were to choose to buy apples..i rather get it from a friendly and cheerful uncle than another who is always looking so gloomy. Passion my friends.

the past 3 days of conferences had really stretched my mindset! It was tremendous! God showed me things which i never saw before through one anointed man! the next thing after all these... Action! I must put whatever i learnt into practice! the more i practice, the better i become! the more God can use me in the Marketplace, for the Marketplace, to penetrate the Marketplace! I can become a top producer in Jesus name!

Tomorrow is my prac 3! its so fast! on monday i took 2 pracs! wow.. amazing! I pray that someone would sell his/her TP slot and i can buy it! I want an earlier test date! anyway, i am not so worried because it is in God's hands! what i am slightly more concerned about is my M5, M9, HI papers! I want to pass these 3 papers asap so that i can start producing results in AIA! God has empowered me and prepared me for a time such as this! I know that i know...I am not fearful because He is with me. The Holy Spirit will guide my every step! effective doors will be opened! I will shine for the glory of God because the gifts and the calling upon my life are irrevocable! YEAH!! I AM SO EXCITED!!! CAN YOU FEEL IT???

anyway, just some things that i have been pondering about.....

"For all sad words of tongue and pen
The Saddest are these: 'It might have been!' "

i really don't wish to one day look back and regret! I know that God has many things installed for me..It comes at different stages! maybe someday i will be out in the missions field preaching full time? I never know...just for now... I want to be the best that God is leading me into....

"For all happy words we speak or write
The happiest are these: 'I WON THE FIGHT!' "

Live is good..His mercies are new every morning..never look back at your defeats..but press on towards your goals in Christ Jesus!

AMEN!!

AWESOME! highly impacted!

2006-08-19T05:28:00.000+08:00

wow!! today's conference was truly out of this world! it was so deep yet it revealed so much truth!! especially the illustration about the quarters.

scene 1: you see 8 quarters(25cents) scattered around on the pavement along the way...you might think that someone must have dropped it. true?

scene 2: you see 2 stacks of 4 quarters placed nicely on the pavement along the way...you would conclude that someone must have placed it there nicely. true?

this entire universe that we live in.. It runs with an amazingly,highly intelligent system. after day, it will be night and vice versa..how there will be high and low tides..how gravity takes place...how the entire planet system is created...how the billions of stars are formed with many that are yet to be or will ever be explored or discovered! then the same must apply...Someone must have created all these. Guess no further... it is God.

living a life with Him therefore means that.. It has to keep going to the next level..Its a life of promotions. many times i cant comprehend what God is doing in my life, but i know that His plans for me are only the best. Jer 29:11 says that His thoughts towards me are thoughts of peace and not of evil...to give me a future and a hope! Amen! Even when i am in my captivity, God has already pre-planned for me greatness..I just have to walk into it by simply believing and obeying. You can too today! The bible says that... "for even before you were created in your mother's womb...I knew you.." Your birth is never an accident! It was beautifully and purposefully created! God had planned you to be that Sarah, that Abel, that John, that Ivan, that Ricky, that Andrew and the list goes on, that He meant you to be! The life of God can only be experienced, when you are walking right before Him..The decision is yours and the ball is in your courts!

Amazing!

anyhow, today after service...went to meet the rest of the guys! finally saw Wayne after such a longggggg time! it was great to see you Wayne! and of course the rest of the noobs.. hah... but i was really encouraged when kiat told me he wanted to invest for his future! you know, i wished i had started investments while i was yet young..a little becomes much after time. no amount is too insignificant! no age is too old or young!

anyhow, kenny, Jasmine, Max and some others are waiting for me to be contracted as a financial advisor..so that i can help get them covered and insured, and also to prepare a savings and investment plan for them! Its really a powerful thing! because when you plan while you are young(below 30)..When you are at your prime, you will look back and thank God that you did invested! ask everyone you see who are in their 30's...if they have never invested or saved, they will have loads of regrets. they wished that they did! start young my friends.. =)

I really want to get my license to provide financial planning soon! my friends out there who wish to know more about all these, or to make me your honoured advisor, I can promise you 3 things!

1) I will walk with you through your thick and thin. when you need the check, i will be the face whom will deliver the check to you!

2) I strongly believe that Trust is THE main importance in any business. I want to be the one whom when you think Insurance, You think Cedric Samuel Chua. I may not be perfect..but i will make sure that you have only benefits and never regrets!

3) someday when you decide to increase your premium, to open more accounts, to find better lobangs.. I WILL BE HERE FOR YOU! if you know me.. I am one who seeks the best deals i can in life. similarly, i want you to benefit as much as you can! please don't ever mind my commission..thats secondary. whats primary and important is your total benefits! thats what i will be here for! To make sure you are insured for life!

with my 3 mottos in financial advising said.. I hope that friends around me.. If you intend to get yourselves insured or covered, investments and savings.. do give me that chance to be your financial advisor. I promise my best and you will not regret it! up sword mountain, down fire sea(translate chinese) I will do it just to fight for more benefits for you. trust me.

alrighty...got to wake up in 4 hours time for lessons. so will be back to blog! thanks all for your friendships! be it less than a year..to those buddies...friends for life!

Jesus you are my everything! nitesssss

I feel Great!

2006-08-18T02:13:00.000+08:00

yeahhh... finally enrolled. but monday is the prac.. sigh...so long.. have to wait 4 days! *faints*

tmr gonna be a long day! at noon, got to teach clarine! actually i really enjoy teaching her. because more than just teaching, we always chit chat. but while chit chatting, of course she is also practising! its really good.. not many people can multi-task. then after that, will be meeting up with bro chris and the rest at office. so exciting! much to learn! when i know 80%... i will start my own investments! really important to plan for my life. realised that many at my age aren't even planning for their future..many has less than a hundred in their bank account! for a person the age of 20 and above... that really just mean that you need to seriously start doing something about it. its not about how much u earn.. its really about how much you save! force yourself to... and in afew years, you will reap the rewards..will you be complaining that you are spending $60-100 less each month then? i guess not.

oh yeah.. and after that of course, we will be going for Dr A.R Bernard conference!! It has been 4 years! I am sure that the things he is going to share will deeply bless and impact my believe system! I pray that God will knock it deep into my heart and let the seed grow and manifest in my life! I am empowered to succeed! Amen.

looking forward to all that God is doing and is going to do in my life.

A time to sow, a time to reap..

2006-08-16T00:05:00.000+08:00

The past 2 days had been simply awesome! How God spoke to me... how i began to see investments in a different light. Financial planning is really quite a noble thing to do=) because it teaches people whom arent discipline or who has no chance to be in their finances, to be. What you cant see, you won't spend. how true isnt it? normally, we wouldnt even think twice before getting into a liability..its time we start some sound investment. force yourselves to save. reap the fruits of your labor few years down the road. That would bring a sweet smile on your face. Do you know that with just $30+ a month, you can start some plans? amazing! with a dollar, you can be covered up to $1000. thats so wu hua! and don't boast about tomorrow! because you really dunno what can happen the next moment. at least if you are not planning for your own life, plan for your family. I want to invest for my family! at least if my time is up...my mother has something to live with. a small token of my appreciation for all these years of undying love for me.

anyway, I am just feeling great! I have a great destiny ahead! I have a great dream for the coming few years! I can drive my Evo by age 26! There is indeed a time for everything... A time to sow..and a time to reap! Now for me, its a time to sow.. few years down when i start reaping, I will truly look back with a smile. I am so excited about what God is doing through my life. I am empowered to succeed because when i am successful, i am also empowered to be a blessing to the people around me and ultimately to the nation! If the ungodly, the unchurched, the booastful can do it... why not me? Esp so when i have THE most important factor for success. The Creator God.

life can be quite unfair to some..but ultimately, it is really what you make out of it that counts. Life is created by the choices that you make. the right choices that you make today, will determine the right kind of life you deserve to live tomorrow. Life and death..choose life. This is not what i say, but what my bible says! Life with Jesus is truly never a bore! It is different every single day! It is progressive! It is FANTASBULOUS! I wouldnt exchange a Ferrari for it! because my God can offer me the shop that you would purchase that car from. see the idea? The world has attractive things to offer.. i don't deny that. I admit i get tempted many times...but God has constantly shown Himself to be that good and faithful God. Therefore, no riches on this earth compares to Him. No friends even. Period.

Friends out there, i just want to encourage you to believe in your dreams! Go reach for it! make the right choice and not the popular ones. Jesus wasnt always about the popular... He was always with the poor, the needy and the unwanted. key point... if you missed it all, don't miss this!

IT IS GOD's WAY.... OR NO WAY.

God is good. HE is ready to bless you. He will provide for you.

2006-08-13T02:39:00.000+08:00

sneaky fellow. everytime i see 'this' while riding, my heart skips! actually i am very open...come and tell me you want a picture of me i will willingly pose for u. don't secretly do it la!

2006-08-13T02:36:00.000+08:00

this looks kinda cool!

2006-08-13T02:34:00.000+08:00

another nice pic!! i took 100000 and only afew turned out nice =/

2006-08-13T02:30:00.000+08:00

WELCOME!!

2006-08-12T15:25:00.000+08:00

HAhaa.. just realised that there are actually other people(people whom do not know me) reading my blog entries! welcome welcome. do drop a taggy if you are a visitor! please don't remain annonymous! =)

Hope that my entries would inspire you in some way or another=)

2006-08-12T15:00:00.000+08:00

Mine, Andrew, Jie liang. The 'Chua's gang.

2006-08-12T14:58:00.000+08:00

Me and my bike! on the way back from 2nd link(north-south highway)

2006-08-12T14:55:00.000+08:00

another shot. candid =p

2006-08-12T14:51:00.000+08:00

Evan(ah girl) , Sister, And Me.

Weeeeeee

2006-08-12T05:26:00.000+08:00

I'm home! and its 5am in the morning! been a very very long day!

today i met my sister for lunch! haha..went to killiney kopitiam. Evan(ah girl) was there too! short time but enjoyable one=) besides, i seldom meet my sis too! shes busy and i am busy too. so both our timing clashes most of the times!

had cg today! I led worship and testimony. hmm.. felt that worship was awesome! felt that the members were hungry for the presence of God. At least it wasnt difficult to usher in the presence of God. God spoke through the book of nehemiah today! it was the part when Nehemiah was building the gates for the temple.. "with one hand they constructed, and with the other they held their swords". God spoke to me about safe-guarding my heart and at the same time to continue reaching for more of God's presence, His anointing, His power. It was a word for the cell group. this coming sunday when i teach the guys guitar, i will share more of it with them! I know it will bless them as much as it blessed me! simple but very important! =)

Overall, cell group was awesome today! I really enjoyed leading today because the people were hungry. That made worship-leading easy for the worship leader! breakthrough always comes when the people decides to take a step of faith to press in deeper, a step closer..just a bit more each time! I pray that E214 will rise up! Each member would learn to lay hold of God for themselves! Lets breakthrough to another level together! I believe in you guys!

I am pretty excited! because in 5days, i can go take my class 2a license! finally! And i am praying for finances to come in for both Elle and myself! God is our provider! He had always been so faithful each time! and I know that faithfulness is the cornerstone of His character! Open up the windows of heaven Lord! In Jesus name!

Tomorrow, i might be going to see fireworks at night with the bikers! then after that we were planning to watch 'Click'. hopefully everyone would go! I realised that i am putting on too much weight.. so i am really gonna start dieting from tmr. no more compromise. 60kg! here i come!

nitess everyone! will blog again soon! =)

2006-08-09T04:50:00.000+08:00

caught her in her half retarded action! hahahah.. but actually its quite cool.. twist your head and look at it from different angles. you wouldnt find any saliver dripping out=p

2006-08-09T04:44:00.000+08:00

abit dark... taken during jamming.. i think this was the song which i broke my sticks -.-"

2006-08-09T04:37:00.000+08:00

<= My beloved band! from left.. Alvin(Rhythm guitarist) , Melvin(lead guitarist), Qizhi(vocalist+my cgl), Zoe Teo Xinyi(Vocals + my KTV buddy), Pheobe(Manager+vocals), John( Bassist + Rock singer=p) , Ryan(2nd guitarist), Me!(drummer)

2006-08-09T04:05:00.000+08:00

Taken at Taiwan emerge!

Me, Pst Tan, Bro Suraj!

so honoured!

2006-08-09T03:57:00.000+08:00

<== finally i found out how to upload pics!! so sua gu! anyway, this was taken by some professionals during emerge conferencE! i think that it really made me look good! hahah.. plus those headphones! wheee weet!! sweet.

sick =/

2006-08-07T20:49:00.000+08:00

been so long sinced i blogged! and its all because i was sick the past many days! each time i got back..would be too tired to use the comp! =X
praying for healing! anyhow, past few days was exciting! and so many events! so where to start? ok..i shall start from 2 nights ago at 2nd link- north-south highway!

went into perlin(about 40+ Km after the tuas checkpoint) for food and of course to see see look look. i wished i had taken my RVF along..but oh well, the chance will come soon! the food was extremely delicious! and its cheap! dirt cheap! i spent $5 SGD and i ate like a king! 2 drinks + 2 main course! my goodness.. how am i ever gonna lose weight??! ok i will.. because diet starts tonight! heh=p

i am targetting my old weight of 60kg! i am so heavy now...65kg=/ you see...5kg, i think my bike becomes weaker by 5hp! and already i feel like i am decelerating when going up slopes! grrr.. i need my 2a! counting down 10 days!! yipeeeee... finally...waited so long..

yesterday was fantastic! the 17th anniversary felt so warm! felt so homely! wished my bike friends could make it! everything was planned so well! i felt so touched when i saw the video for pst kong! he is really an inspiration! serving God is indeed my privilege! but serving God together with pst Kong is more than i can ask! tho he may not know me..but i am running with his vision! I am believing his dreams! way to go pst! You rock!

been sick for so many days..really ruin the mood for anything! wan to go out also sian! kept coughing and kept getting my nose stuck! hopefully out of this i can shed some weight! haha..this is also quite a good investment if i really did lose some weight! haha.. anyway, will blog again later tonight.. wanna spend some time praying now while i am not feeling so terrible..

('.')

eventful day... my thoughts and heart's voice.

2006-08-02T03:30:00.000+08:00

Been a long day! today went to so many places! literally the whole singapore!! went to bbdc, then to La salle, then to traffic police HQ, then to Johan house, then to teach, then to elle place and finally to meet the guys at yishun!! thank God for wave.... super save petrol! hehe;>

at least i managed to book my final theory for driving and also remake my driving license! = =" and i got my SHOEI helmet!! haha..finally got my own fullface. so many things to do for my bike! need a respray, new exhaust, new tires, new chain and spocket and some servicing! but its ok..i have about 6 weeks to do all that! pray that my pay will keep coming in. =p

today was at chong pang nasi lemak(favorite nasi lemak in town!).. met up so many of the guys today! oh yeah..in case you do not know, i am the founder of the noob club! hahah.. its just a group of us who always hang out together! well.. we do everything from racing to slacking! and most of them have been to church with me before! how i wished they were part of my cell group! how fun would that be..serving God together and at the same time having fun! I know that God will make me a testimony to the world around me! someday they will also know this awesome God that i serve! He is like no other! He is alive and He moves mightily!

This coming weekend gonna get very busy! F.O.P and then 17th anniverssary!17 amazing years!7 amazing years that io have been in church! the church has watched me grown from a nonsense teen to a working adult who is still so on fire for Him! and this will only get better because God has prepared a great destiny for my life! He has placed upon my life a seed of eternity! the seed of the highest quality! and only in the church, i can nurture it and water it. The church is a place where i have never expected myself to be in growing up as a youth..but after i encountered Jesus, everything changed! I have knew imagine that i could have a relationship with a savior whom for my sake went to the cross to die for me! just so i could have the chance to come before God almighty and to have communion with Him! Which other god in the universe has done that for me? none. And the bible tho written was inspired by the Holy Spirit. every single word in it! scientist over the years have tried in vain to prove the bible groundless.. the fact is.. a man called Jesus came 2006 years ago claiming to be the messiah of the world did went to the cross. But thats not all there is to Christianity..because on the third day..Jesus rose from the dead! today in Jerusalem, the tomb remains empty! because Jesus is alive! He is seated at the right hand of God the Father. This is the power of God to all believers! To You who believe, He is precious! In the name of Jesus, the lame shall walk and the blind shall see! Amen! This truth is so powerful that it literally split the entire calendar from B.C to A.D. why would the world use a man to mark the days of human beings? because.. the fact is.. Jesus is coming back again! We are living at the edge before the millenium reign of Christ. I have learnt.. never follow the time..follow the signs. Every arrow is pointing towards Jerusalem, the very city that Jesus was born in! the heart of God. the day when the muslim allow the church to worship on the same mountain (the place where the temple of God originally was) , that would mean that Jesus is really coming back! there is no time to waste..every single day, young people are partying their life away.. every moment we live, we are counting down to the day of the Lord. there will be no turning back then..It will all be set and done. The judgement seat of Christ. scary? yes it is. but for all believers, it will be a glorious moment.. but wad about our love ones? the friends whom we go shopping with..the ones we grow up with..the ones whom i love..the ones whom brought joy and laughter into my life? its urgent! and it requires our immediate attention. no matter how hard they try to avoid the topic, it is truth. God is real.. and He is coming back.

Friends, for all who are believers.. lets be urgent about the salvation of our loved ones.. and for you all whom have never gave yourself the oppotunity to know Him..I plead with you..give Him and yourself a chance. consider your family and loved ones..life is more than having fun. If you had ever thought about how the universe was created and how the living things existed.. then the fact remains.. There is a Creator. And He is God. Dun run from Him anymore...Run to Him. 7 years ago when i gave my life to Jesus, It was very difficult too. my friends mocked me..some even thought i was nuts.. But looking back..It was all worth it. He is my everything. I have found One true friend in Him. thats all that matters. You can too! give yourself that chance. There is nothing to be ashame of..walk into that life that was originally intended for you. Do the right thing. Jesus loves you.

a long sermon that was...but thats really wads been in my heart. I wished i could talk to many of you my friends esp my bike friends this way.. but i know that would scare you away. someday if You stumble upon this post and decided that you want to give yourself that chance, do call me. I wuld gladly buy you coffee and we could talk over it. ok? =) cheers? noobs? peace.

alright.. got to wake up early tmr morning. long day to go! fruitful day it would be! because my Lord is with me..everything is alright!

Good night, Holy Spirit.

More of the anointing..

2006-08-01T04:27:00.000+08:00

Its 4am! and its been....a day since i blogged. =p been going out late thats why.. anyway here goes..

this few days i have been thinking about what i want to do for my life! my career, God's calling etc etc. just few days back i spoke to Bro. Chris about financial planning and he asked me to consider joining him before i enter the army=) I have always thought that i could make it as a sales person, just wasnt sure if i could be a good financial advisor. I really needed confirmation from God because if i join, that would also mean that alot of time will be devoted to building my career, but that would also mean that i can meet more people! and i find joy in meeting and knowing new people! =p So i have been praying about it..and i felt that.. i should go for it=) because God is able to multiply my time! I cant, but He can! I need more of the wisdom of God upon my life. Its not easy but i know with Him, I can do it!

so the next obstacle would be... the 3 exams!!!! faints*.. i tot i said bye bye to exams just awhile back...and now i am facing what i detest most again! but i know i can do it! Gambate! :> God will anoint me to sit through the exams and pass to proceed to be contracted as an agent! In Jesus name! meanwhile, i will of course do my homework.. I will read more books! my dad has a whole shelf of them! valuable books. maybe i could start a business renting out those books=p

Elle kept calling me to tell me she bought her car! haha..of course i am happy for her. because whats hers... pastor say... its also mine! muahaha..no longer whats mine is hers.. whats hers is also hers... now whats hers is also mine. but then again.. i am not that excited because i havnt got m y class 3 license! sigh... been so many years since i passed my basic theory. so i shall go book for my advance theory tmr! then i will take my lessons.. slowly and surely i will get my license! besides, driving isnt difficult! the theory is the same as riding. you get biting point, you move the vehicle. simple. hah..easier said than done! pass adv theory first then say! i am still believing God for my Evo 9 by the age of 26!! I can do it!

I have realised that it is so important to be a testimony in the area of finance! really, when your friends begin to see how you handle your finances, they will see stewardship which also reflects the character of God. Faithful. So i pray that i will be a good steward in this area! a tithe of my salary always belong to God. this 10% belongs to Him! people of the world thinks that God wants our money..thats silly. He owns a thousand cattles over a thousand hills! would He need my money? since the day i tested His word, I had never been able to outgive Him! why? Because thats Him! You should try Him too! no banks in the world can offer His kind of interest rate! amazing.

God is good!

I remember reading about this amazing godly lady called, Kathryn kulman. In one of her meetings, she wept sorrowfully at the pulpit. and she looked up with fiery eyes and said.., " please.. do not grieve the Holy Spirit.. so not grieve... He is all i ever had..."

I have been so impacted by the words she used.. He is all i ever had... this shows the degree of closeness they had. The person in the Holy Spirit is a gentle lover. He is a friend. He is love. I want to have what she had. I need what she had everyday of my life. I pray that i can be a consecrated vessel that He can reside in. I need a greater level of breakthrough in my life. Holy Spirit, You are welcome. Please come in and make me Your secret place.

I pray that God's presence will continually be with me every moment of my life. the day He leaves is the day i die. simply put it, i cant live without Him. just as what king David said, "even if i make my bed in seoul, there Your presence would be". I am imperfect and many times i fail. many times. But each time i pray that i will rebound stronger! what the devil meant for evil, God You turn it around for Your glory! Your hands are not too short that You cant save me! make me a light to the world i live in! Let my light shine before men! let me stand before kings! because i represent You. demons tremble at Your name, under the sound of my voice. hell shakes when i pray because You have place upon me authority, the authority for victory! make me strong in Your might as i consecrate my life before You. make me an overcomer In Jesus name! make me an influence to the people around me! the anointing of God upon my life will attract all to me. And Your name will be high and lifted up in the process of it all. Do not let Your words go back to you void! You have spoken Your promises.. You are mighty, living and powerful! raise up Your standard upon my life! Prosper the works of my hands.. prosper my every kingdom-intentions! open up heaven for my sake Lord. Because You will send me forth as a Jeremiah in my time! do not withhold Your blessings upon my life Lord.. Let me see Your glory be lifted up! In Jesus mighty name..

Holy Spirit guide my every step.. You are all i have.

eventful day!

2006-07-30T01:52:00.000+08:00

just went to see Zoe blog and i saw the lyrics of a song which i lvoed so much when i was studying back in ACS. so i took the liberty to copy it from her blog to mine! =p

here it goes...

Thank You Lord
Thank You, Lord
For the trials that come my way
In that way I can grow each day
As I let you lead
And I thank You, Lord
For the patience those trials bring
In the process of growing
I can learn to care

But it goes against the way I am
To put my human nature down
And let the Spirit, take control of all I do
Coz when those trials come
My human nature, shouts the things to do
And God's soft prompting
Can be easily ignored

But I thank You, Lord
With each trial I feel inside
That You're there to help, lead and guide
My way from wrong
Coz You promised, Lord
That with every testing
That Your way of escaping's
Easier to bear

Yes I thank You, Lord
For the victory that growing brings
In surrender of everything
Life is so worthwhile
And I thank You, Lord
That when everything's put in place
Out in front I can see Your face
And it's there You belong

i really felt that this is so true..esp the chorus..sometimes my human nature shouts the things to do and i can ignore God's soft promting.. i pray that when that happens, rather than submitting to my human nature, i will obey God's leading.

Today has been quite an eventful evening..taught whole morning then went visitation. after that i met elle for dinner and we were discussing which car she should get. haha..learnt a little about cars. the pricing that is. Evo 9 is ready for orders! but that must wait...after NS..i pray that i can be financially independent enough then to get one! hah=) I know God sees the desires of my heart..counting down to my own Evo!

I am so excited about tomorrow service! Pst Mike service confirm plus chop.. awesome! I know that God has something installed for me! I pray that i will be open to His leading and if i must respond, i will. Holy Spirit speak to me even as i make my way to church early in the morning! I know You want to launch me into my destiny! I am 22 already Lord..make my life count for You. In Jesus name.

So excited for the service later! something is stirring in my heart..

God You are awesomely awesome!

2006-07-28T14:18:00.000+08:00

The wind of the Holy Spirit is not sent to us to cool us down, but to fan the flame.

-Reinhard Bonke

2006-07-28T13:50:00.000+08:00

i have decided to go on a one week fast. Pray that i will have new encounters with the Lord and greater strength to be an overcomer! In Jesus name.

reflections

2006-07-28T02:36:00.000+08:00

On my way back on my bike, i was actually thinking of so many things which i had wanted to do but not doing.. from little things like, replacing my IC, driving license etc etc, to bigger things like, career. Then it dawn upon me that there are so many things that God is wanting to do with my life as well! He is still not through with my life! and i begin to pray my whole journey back home and it really felt awesome!

God just brought to my remembrance many promises He has spoken to me while i was yet young, just wanting more of His presence. Years ago when i was learning the guitar, my heart's prayer would always be, with every strum of the guitar, i could usher in the presence of God. just wanting to do more for Him.. to fulfill His call upon my life. And this is the cry of my heart today! I just want more of God's presence each day..I realised that all else are secondary as long as God is with me..ministry can wait, career can wait..because i know God provides. Today as i was on my bike, the promises of God came back to me as how the prodigal son was returning to the Father. I was returning to the safest place where all my dreams and desires birthed from. I was the prodigal son returning to the sweet embrace of God my Father. my Abba. My all. I feel so safe in this place, so warm. this is something that no man or woman can do..this love is love in its purest. Its Agape.

there is a heart cry within me.. a cry for God to speak to me each and every moment. A heart's desire for the move of God upon my life. I have found the hope of my life. God is my expectation. He is so amazing.

This was what God spoke to me on my journey back..some of the things He reminded me of..

Cedric, only be very courageous! do not fear what men can do to you because I am for you. you shall go to whoever i send you to.. My words you will speak..My deeds you shall acomplish, because i am with you. you will be like Jeremiah, going where i command and doing great wonders among the people. though you are not seeing it now, but I will show you what i can accomplish through your life.. eyes have not seen nor ear heard, nor have entered into the hearts of men what i will do through your life! only when you continue to abide in my Word. do not fear but only believe..havent you seen how i have raise up vessels who are willing to do my work. My calling upon your life are irrevocable. keep on keeping on..do not lose heart because I am with you. delay is never denial.. the gifts upon your life are never wasted. This book of law shall not depart from your mouth, but you shall meditate on it day and night, that you may observe to do according to all that is written in it. For then you will make your way prosperous, and then you will have good success. wait, i say on the Lord.

I am so in love with Him.

Trusting in His unfailing love......

2006-07-26T14:49:00.000+08:00

Like the woman with the issue of blood
we press in, we press in
Like the blind man, waiting patiently
we press in, through the crowd

then suddenly, a touch from heaven
Jesus came and rescued me
then suddenly, a touch from heaven
Jesus came and set me free

I want more...

2006-07-26T03:52:00.000+08:00

Truly God is an amazing God!! Remember i was quite sad weeks earlier when i received a $600 summon for illegal parking? and in the end i decided to go to Taiwan despite of that trusting that He will make a way for me?! He did! Today i walked happily into town council office to make a minimal payment for $100!! hahaha.. God is good! my prayers saved me $500! see? You ought to pray too! heh=p PTL!

I am so excited about this weekend service! Pst Mike conner is here!! Each time during his deliverance services, i can always feel the tangible presence of God so strongly! not to mention when He start moving into inner healing! when people all around start to be filled with such joy, words can never describe! I am expectant for God to speak to me and to move in my life! sometimes i just wished that i was more sensible and kingdom minded before.. but i also know that God will restore the years of my wanderings to me! nothing is ever lost in the kingdom of God! His calling upon my life are irrevocable! I have a tremendous destiny in God because He loves me and has placed the 'seed' of the highest quality in my life!

Psalms 4:7 -
You have put gladness in my heart, more than in the season that their grain and wine increased.

Indeed, the joy that God is putting into my heart far surpasses any other joy that worldly gains could ever bring! I will see the deliverance of His hands constantly upon my life! I am ready Lord.. take me on an adventure with You.

I pray that God will look into my heart..i pray that my motives are pure before Him..may i be a vessel that He can use! If You are willing Lord..I know You can use me. raise me up.. set my feet upon Your rock.. Let me see greater works being birthed forth out of my life! because You live in me..I am mighty in Your sight! I choose not to bow to circumstances.. i choose to trust Your leading. when my heart fails, I pray You will arise in me! You are strong when i am weak! You are Jehovah shammah! You are always with me.

Psalms 34:15,17-18
The eyes of the Lord are on the righteous, and His ears are open to their cry. The righteous cry out, and the Lord hears, and delivers them out of their troubles. The Lord is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves such as have a contrite spirit.

hear my prayers Lord...Let me be who You want me to be! i have a holy dissatisfaction..I want a greater portion of Your anointing upon my life..direct my path Lord. In Jesus name..

happening!!!

2006-07-25T01:46:00.000+08:00

happening day today! met elle in the afternoon for lunch, then i bought my crumpler bag!! woooooo=) love it! after that around evening, met up with Zoe, Raymond, Carter for KTV!!! very fun today! manages to conquer quite afew songs! the song shan hu hai by Jay chou is really very high!! *faintz* but very nice and fun to sing! really enjoyed myself today! must go again soon! probably with some mission trip friends! will jio Zoe along again! ok Zoe? =) hehe

today on my way home after meeting andrew and gang, i was just singing and i remembered some old songs which really meant so much to me! heres one of it....

Great is the Lord and most worthy of praise
the city of our God the holy place
the joy of the whole world
and great is the Lord in whom we have the victory
He aids us against the enemies
we bow down on our knees

and Lord we want to lift Your name on high
and Lord we want to thank You
for the works You've done in our lives
and Lord we trust in Your unfailing love
for You alone are God eternal
throughout earth and heaven above!

wow.. great song!

truly only God deserve all my praise.. because He had never left me.. He remains faithful even while i was unfaithful! HE is the God who never changes and the only thing that changes is that.. He loves me more and more each and everyday! I am so in love with You Lord.. let this love never die..let me be a true lover who knows the heartbeat of Yours. I pray that You would sensitize my heart each day, make me broken before You. when i am weak, You are strong..You are my strong fortress, my help in times of need! You are just amazing!~ i just pray that my friends around me whom have yet to know You will give this relationship a try. because i know that they will never regret making this choice because i have never! You are my everything Lord.. thank You for all that You are to me.. I know that each day as i draw close to You, You will draw close to me.. love You so much abba!

In Love with You Lord..

Your Amazing!

2006-07-23T22:35:00.000+08:00

What a long day today! slept this morning at 4am and woke up at 8am! then i rushed to church to try to book good seats for my members but to no avail=/ the trip was exciting! I zoom past a speed cam at about 110=x i was really too tired! jus moments ago i was reminding myself that there is a speed cam ahead and then..... haiz... good thing no flash! thank God.. then js before the exit to expo, i was travelling at about 115km/h, at the corner of my eye, i saw a white figure holding something and pointing it from the bridge!!! guess what.. its Mr. TP! zzzz.. my heart almost pop out of my mouth..I pray that he didnt snap any pictures!!!

service was great! the jokes were really very funny! hahah. I Pray for good in-laws! otherwise i will come out with another joke to circulate online! hehe!

today i had gastric the whole day!! grrr... really hates it each time this "old neighbour" comes to visit! so this is a weakness of my life too! that qualifies me for greatness in the kingdom of God!! hahaha.. .joking! (pastor kong has panic anxiety..and i have gastric) ok..very off topic... =p

Today as i was on the bike, many old songs was brought to my remembrance! i loved one of it so much!

theres a new wine that we're drinking
filled with Holy Ghost power
filling up to the top, and overflowing
so get into the river and drink from the well
springing up from the fountain
of the Holy Ghost

Oh taste and see, that the Lord is good!
fill me oh Lord, with Your oil of joy
like a river flow through me
like a fire burn so free
as i drink like You i will be!

really a beautiful song..it really refreshes me each time i began to worship God with it! God is a good God! and only He is worthy of my life service!

oh yeah..i was suppose to share about my taiwan trip! actually nothing much.. just that i realised i really hated smelly beancurd! YUUccks!!! taste like normal tofu..but the smell is ten thousand planets apart! yyyucckkss!! not to mention the smelly smelly wok! i wouldnt even consider trying that!

apart from that, everything else tasted quite good! i realised that the taiwanese, they've got very unique taste buds. hahah.. they like to eat things which doesnt smell so good... hmmm..weird! but they are really nice people! i really love the taiwanese!!! and i wan all the taiwanese to know that you are always a part of my prayer!!!! =) God bless Taiwan! Taiwan for Jesus!!!!!!

In recent months, i realised i spent quite abit of money! really wanted to buy a drumset but decided to go for the mission trip instead! and i have no regrets!! its worth more than 10 DW drumsets! I know someday when i go to heaven, God will give me a room fully equipped with the world best brands!!! heh.. I am thinking of taking up vocal lessons! because i see huang yida...he cannot sing that well also can become famous! maybe its worth a try! haha.. oh well, i wil pray about it first! hahaha. anyway, one important truth i've learnt is... WHAT MIGHT SEEM TO BE WORTH WORKING FOR MIGHT JUST NOT BE IT! because i rather do what God wants me to than what the world suggest!

Prayer for my life...

God i pray for strength to continually be upon me..I pray that i will learn humility in all things! I will be a vessel that You can flow through! Let me never do anything that might grieve Your Spirit because You are all i've got. God i pray for wisdom to come upon me, let it be a garment that clothe me daily! Your praise shall continually be on my lips because You are mighty! Your Word is living and powerful.. let Your words come forth from my mouth with authority! Let whatever i speak be established! i pray that i will be as Samuel in the bible, when he spoke, You never allowed his words t0 fall to the ground! make me who You want me to be Lord! I live my life for You..may it be a sweet smelling aroma to You. Let every fibre of my being honor You because i was made to worship You... expand my capacity, increase my understanding, widen my territories! I will carry out great exploits not because of who i am, but who You are in my life! In JEsus name..

AMEn!!!

VvrrrrOOooommmm

2006-07-23T04:00:00.000+08:00

just got back from rounding with my bike friends! they really havoc! till now they are still going around! zzzzz... sometimes i really wished that they have a vision to live for.. something more than just going out with friends to ride and ride and ride, eat and eat and eat. I believe someday, they will want to live for Jesus! to dream great dreams for Him! I pray that through me, they will see the character of Jesus! the bible says that, i will be a light to the world, a salt of this earth! a city thats set on a hill cannot be hidden! I thank God for placing some of these friends into my life! Andrew, Chrislyn, Ivan.. i am praying for their salvation everyday! someday, we will march into heaven together! =) Amen.

today i went for service! it was awesome! pastor preached about learning how to stay in love with your spouse, learning to put God as the center of the marriage! Moral issues were also addressed! I felt that this message will take our church to the next level! the youths will start to expand their capacity and learn to live a life of purity before God! I pray that I will be an example in my conduct to the fellow believers! i am expectant of what God is going to speak to me in a few hours time! wow...

I am physically exhausted now..i am feeling aches all over my back and my neck.. perhaps i have not been sleeping well..i know that God will multiply my rest later! because i have another long day to go! tomorrow after service, i need to give bible study and later in the evening, i need to go do visitation! I pray for the wisdom of God to come upon me..so that i can speak whatever God wants me to and minister in the best way which is the God-way! =p In Jesus name..

I am really glad that i am reading the book by Reinhard Bonke.. It has caused a certain urgency to be birthed within me! I felt that i need to go back to the basic thats to love God wholeheartedly, and to love people fervently! I am not perfect but i pray that God will make me more and more like Him as days goes by!

today i saw the Taiwan emerge video!! at many points, i really felt so glad that i went to Taiwan to help out and to serve! I can sense so strongly that God has already started His work amongst the youths in Taiwan! and i know that He is well pleased with me because i obeyed and went! I am so thankful because the few days of emerge in Taiwan had really taught me to live my life by faith! to live my life according to the will of God. I am looking forward to more oppotunities to go for missions again!

ok...really am very very tired now..long ride to expo tmr morning! i wanna go grab good seats!!! so i better be off now! will blog again tmr night! or maybe morning? =p haha.. ritess...
may the Lord grant me His beloved rest!

Stir my heart Lord as i sleep.. prepare me for a great time tmr! In Jesus mighty name!

My Taiwan trip!!!

2006-07-21T15:57:00.000+08:00

I am home!! wow! it had been an awesome 9 days in Taiwan! lots to write!!! but its all exciting!!!

during this trip, i got to know many great people! great servanthood shown in their attitude! got to know Daniel, great guy! thank God for him because i would have been very bored if he wasnt around. had the privilege to work with another leader called sarah. She has shown me what humility is and i have also learnt that to be a good leader, we must first be a good servant! got to know many of the Ushers who came along on this trip.. Adeline, Baotian and teams.. great and fun people too! just want to thank you all for making my first missiontrip count!

when i was there, i experienced TYPHOON!! its really exciting! i have never seen anything like dat before in my life.. not that i thank God for typhoon but just like what i said previously, i thank God when im in it..not for it=p anyway, it was quite scary at night.. when i was sleeping, i can really hear the wind blowing!! now i know how they got those ghostly sounds in chinese movies.. fun.

and so, day 1 of emerge begins! in this mission trip, we do everything. I was helping out with Ushering, bookstore, traffic marshall, counsellor. and we just do everything from PA to PR! physical arrangements to public relations! very exciting! Some of the Taiwan youths are really so hungry! they come early in the morning braving the typhoon just so they could get the floor area front seats! i was rubbed by their love for the Lord and so i decided i must give my 110%! I got the chance to mingle with the taiwanese! one of them even gave me a set of guitar strings the next day after we chatted, after i casually told him how my guitar string snapped when i brought it there. I felt so loved. God moved mightily during the 3 days of emerge! the presence of God descended the moment worship began! tears flowed, hearts were mended, lives are changed forever!

I feel so honoured to be part of this team of people whom God is using to change the nation of Taiwan! Indeed, God is raising up a generation of youths who will not be afraid of anything! they will take their world for Jesus! the Jeremiahs will arise because God will place His words into our mouths! His hands with our hands! His mind with ours! what a privilege it is for me to be a vessel that God is willing to use! Reinhard Bonke said in his book, God created us, so that He can use us as His extended hand on the earth to reach out to the world! We are God's plan A! if it fails, He would have nothing to fall back on! And this is the message that we are sent forth with, "Let my people Go!"

I pray that the fire of God will continue to burn within the hearts of the Taiwanese youth! I pray that the fire of God will be like the wildfires! It will spread throughout Taiwan! the youths will take their schools for Jesus! In the north, the south, the east and the west! I feel so honoured to be part of the revival! this mission trip has taught me alot of things! it has shown me what i had always wanted from day one! I want to see lives change! the way mine has been changed! I want to be used by God. I pray i will never do anything that would grieve the Holy Spirit because i want to live under an open heaven! and when i speak, the love of God will flow, the presence of GOd would be felt, In Jesus name!

Taiwan for Jesus!

over the many days there, i went to many places! I took many pictures! and i want to load them up but i cant do it here.. i might just start using multiply.com so i can blog at the same time to post up all my pics! I stayed with my brother at yang ming shan! the view is simply breath-taking! the lights from the city formed the never-ending sea of lights! very beautiful sight to behold! it reminded me of when God spoke to me.. "as far as your eyes can see.. one day, one day u shall see the multitudes coming to me! they shall lift up their hands and proclaim the salvation of My hands!"

one of the nights, i even brought my guitar up the mountain and played there.. there is no better place to do that! i wished i had a yang ming shan behind my house so i can go up and just spend some time of aloneness, closer to heaven!! maybe someday mount everest! even closer=) haha..

when emerge ended, i was happy and sad..happy that many lives are so changed...sad because it seemed like i just arrived the day before and now it was over. But i know that its also the beginning of something great that God is doing! Amen!

I went to tai chung, which was 4 hours drive in total! travelling at a constant speed of 150-180km/h was really thrilling! imagine i had to use the toilet and i controlled for almost 1.5hrs! its mind blowing! actually tormenting. taichung is somewhat similiar to taipei, but things are cheaper there..esp the food! ! i ate soooooooooooo much during this trip! now that i am back, i guess its time to diet! =p

of course i got to know new friends, and i met my old friends! i am really happy to be back but am also sad that i wouldnt be able to see them for a long time!! but thats ok.. because someday, i will see them in heaven! its only a temporary seperation! =O

more about my trips and expeditions=p later....

my overall rating of this trip.... 10/10!!

I would have regretted soo much if i had decided not to go! thank God i went!

i am very expectant of what God is going to do in and through me!

2006-07-11T09:47:00.000+08:00

i'm leaving on a jetplane.. dunno when i'll be back again... =)

Taiwan!! here i come!! Revival is coming!!

i pray i dun put on weight!!

bye all!! see u on 20th!

2006-07-10T20:38:00.000+08:00

The church is not a pleasure boat, but a lifeboat! All hands on deck from the captain to the cook for saving souls!

-Reinhard Bonke

been a long but fruitful week!!!

2006-07-10T18:24:00.000+08:00

Wow! yesterday service was good! thugh i was feeling a little physically tired because i only slept for about 4 hrs the day before! anyhow, it was awesome! God wants to promote me! from where i am to where He wants me to be! be it in Spiritual life, emotional life, and finances.. God is good!

after service, i was stranded! because it was pouring! this is the only draw back about riding.. apart from that, riding is great fun! i was with Pheobe, Angel and Elle.. we were just chatting at foyer 3 outside expo hall 8. you know, they were selling waffles... smells great and it was so tempting! but it is also very expensive! $2!!! outside only $1.20 max. guess the rental of the stall must be very ex thats why!

after that, we decided not to wait for the rain to stop... we decided to take MRT to town! zzzz... but it was not too bad lar.. very relaxing on the train. no need to check blindspot, no need to clutch in clutch out.. no need to look left look right.. just pure relaxation! anyway, tmr i will be able to take MRT again! because i will be going to TAIWAN!!!!! YIPEEEEeeeeeee... but that also meant that i wouldnt be able to blog for a week! maybe i can..but provided my bro and i decide to stay in at home instead of shopping and visiting taiwan.. hah.. happy=)

oh yeah, yesterday i really ate alot! we celebrated Elle birthday! we went to Mr. Bean cafe at selegie area. we ate pizzas, chicken cutlet, lagzania(wrong spelling) and after that, we had american cheesecake! everything was so cheesy!! FATTENING! now i feel so guilty! its ok..i will continue to excersize when im back from Taiwan! =P Taiwan taiwan!!! yeah yeah yeah!! i love Taiwan!!

I am very excited! because i know that God has a great destiny for my life! i am so blessed! I thank God for placing Godly men and women in my life! yesterday, bro suraj wrote me a letter! A LETTER FROM BRO SURAJ!!!??! how shocking is that!? anyway, hes really a great and mighty warrior of God! thats why pst Kong can put him in charge of jurong west building! he is really a very encouraging man! very anointed and a man who fears God. so blessed to be able to be-friend him. I know i will be able to learn alot from him too! i will press in to his life because i know that this friendship is God-sent! greater years ahead!

everything thats happening around me is truly so exciting! God is seemingly restoring to me the things that i had been missing out over the past 4 years! the years which the devil had taken from me, God will restore it all to me! I am hopeful...my heart is filled with so much joy! I know that each day the joy of the Lord will become my strength! each day will be a new encounter with the person in the Holy Spirit! Lord You are amazing! i pray that never never let me go no matter what happens! you are my everything! all else are secondary!

I pray that this coming taiwan emerge would be a time of great encountering with the Lord! i pray that i can be a blessing to the people of Taiwan! I pray that my relationship with people around can grow to the next level! there are so many things that i have yet to see! God open my eyes to see Your glory! open my heart to perceive what you have installed for my life! open my ears to hear Your word! truly theres none that compares to Your majesty and power! You are omnipotent! You are all-powerful in my life! therefore of whom shall i be afraid! I pray for Your portion in my life! I pray for Your anointing in my life! I pray for Your miracles to follow my prayers...let everything that my hand touches be blessed! Holy Spirit Your gifts and calling upon my life, they are irrevocable! You are my paracletos! the one who walks alongside me! guide me daily..let Your glory shine upon my life! let me come to You with a clean heart and a sensitive Spirit. take all of me for ALL of You. may You increase continually daily in my life.. and i decrease! I promise You all glory in Jesus name....

love you so much abba! no one can take Your place!

running with Jesus is my joy!

HooRay!!! God is Good!!!!

2006-07-08T01:46:00.000+08:00

Today Cell group was great! Bro Darren came and preached! i felt it was solid! It was alot about dealing with bitterness and disapointments!
Its true how things can tend to discourage us so much.. esp so when it doesnt turn out the way we wanted it to! events... hmm..i seldom struggle with that..birthday or no birthday celebration...i am ok...people is a major factor.. i have learned something over the years..usually, the people whom you are close to wouldnt be there with you always..new group of friends will be found and bonded. but those that stayed throughout the good the bad and the ugly are the ones who you shuld cherish! no expectations brings forth no discouragements.. haha..not really biblical but its quite true. But theres one friend who never dissapoints! thats Jesus! He is always there..

He strengthens me when I am weak
He guides my feet when I can't see
He watches me when I'm alone
He nourishes my body when I am starved
He cherishes me when I'm worthless
He holds my hand when I am Scared
He comforts me when I am lost
He Waits for me however long
He Loves me though I am wretched
He is my friend though he's my king
He is my heavenly father though I am a lost child

quite good huh.. just now small John suddenly messaged me that. i thought its really good and worth a read!

anyhow, today i have learnt that in all situations, good, bad and again the ugly, always run towards God! and begin to see from His viewpoint! I pray that i can really be someone like moses who is close to God. someone whom the Lord will show the way and not just the acts! another thing that really caused me to think was this phrase...

"only when you totally throw yourself to God, then you can receive the total experience!"

true isnt it? thats why i want to give my all from now on! i dun expect a bed of roses.. but i know that God will take me on a great journey! and the one coming up would be my trip to Taiwan!! how exciting!! my FIRST mission trip!!!!!! hoooorayyyy!!!

oh yeah.. a phrase was brought to my remembrance during cg!!
the greater the destiny, the greater the trials!"

I believe that God has a great destiny for my life! no man can add to it nor take it away! because it belongs to God and me.. period. Its priceless, its my everything! i will fulfill it even if it means giving my all.. i pray for strength!

Job 13:15
- Though He slay me, yet i will trust in Him. Even so, i will defend my own ways before Him! He also shall be my salvation!

amazing attitude! i pray that i will be as Job.. who fears the Lord more than anything!

GOD IS AN AWESOME GOD!!!! AND I LOVE YOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART!

=)

tmr i have to teach early in the morning again! i have already given about 7 students to guoliang.. but it seems that new students are still being added! God is good! hehe=) more students means more money! more money means more means.. more means means more KTV! hahaha.. joking joking! more money means more future mission trips!! and more blessings to people around me!

I pray that God will once again raise my dad to the next level in his life! was just fellowshipping with him... guess what??! my dad used to be the top 7 people in AIA insurance back in his time! I am praying for open doors for him to get back into insurance! the past serves as experience which money can never buy.. i believe that if one is 'zai', no matter where he go, he will be 'zai'!

abba pls prosper my daddy! show him that there is a God in my prayer! and that God is going to become his someday in Jesus name! Amen.

i am expectant for so much that God is going to do! I know He is always with me.. i don't care what men thinks.. what i care is what He thinks! someday, i will stand before millions! and i will witness the greatest number of souls being added to Him in a single day! In Jesus name!

exciting exciting!!!

watch it devil... here i come!

2006-07-06T18:08:00.000+08:00

Jesus does not choose us for what we are, but what He makes us!

-Reinhard Bonke

here i come!!!

2006-07-06T18:00:00.000+08:00

woah... been 2 days since i blog.. anyway here goes..

yesterday i went to eat chilli crabs!!! been so long since i ate that! and its really nice dipping my whole hand into the gravy! yummm... and today my mum brought back some D24 durians!! temptations temptations!! i will eat a little...jus a little.. i promise. =P

ok..i am getting pretty excited about my Taiwan trip!! Its been 4 years since i said that i will save up to go! and finally, i am going and for a very good cause! TAIWAN EMERGE!! God is good! Its really very exciting because its my first missions trip! and more than that, i can get to see all my taiwan friends! i will be staying with my brother Yuren too! he lives in the town area...something like our orchard road! wow!! 5 more days and counting down! although i wouldnt be able to shop much this trip because i am really out on cash, i know i will enjoy myself tremendously! and above all, i pray for encounters with God! I pray that i will be a blessing to the taiwanese people!

recently, i am reading this book called, "hell empty heaven full" by Reinhard Bonke! I just started and already i feel that it is very good. in fact i want to bring it to Taiwan to read when im on the plane and back. hopefully i can finish the book before i arrive back in SG! I know somehow it will benefit me! I pray for a renewed mind! as a man thinks, so is he!

recently, i have been listening to a song in chinese called, reaching for you. its translated from the original by hillsongs. the words are so beautiful! and if i'm not wrong, my bible school classmate Si En is singing the female part! VERY NICE! and these are words, (English)

I cant believe the way your love has got a hold on me
each morning i wake to find you near
You lift me above my fears
and set my feet on solid ground
all of my days belong to You

and i breathe in the breath of life that fills my heart
You are my all consuming fire

and i stand here before You
in wide open wonder amazed
at the glory of You

the power of heaven
revealing Your purpose in me
as i'm reaching for You.

BEAUTIFUL SONG with such beautiful lyrics!

I pray that just as the song says, i will wake up every morning to find God near. in chinese, they translated as, i will wake up every morning to draw near to You. wow.. i pray that as each day passes, the hunger for the presence of GOd will only grow stronger and stronger! In Jesus name. God is a good God! I am really expectant for God to move mightily in my life! I know that there are still things along the way that God will deal with me..and i pray out of it, i will come forth stronger, to become who God wants me to be! Amen.

Amazing!

Lord i pray in my lifetime, show me Your face.. Your greatness, Your wonders, Your anointing, Your glory! I want to witness the greatest amount of souls coming to you in a single meeting! and i pray that Your promises upon my life are Yes and Amen. It will not return to You void! because You have placed upon my life a seed of the Highest quality! let me be a good steward of whatever that You will place into my hands! thank you Lord!

Living for Jesus is my honour.. to do His will is my delight.. to die for Him is my privilege!

looking forward to amazing days ahead! every step i take will belong to You!

2006-07-04T16:20:00.000+08:00

Why does God use one minister more than another? When you have two stoves, one is hot and the other is cold which one will you use to make a cup of tea?

-Reinhard Bonke

2006-07-04T16:11:00.000+08:00

When you preach to the saved, you produce conferences. When you preach to the lost, you produce crusades.

-Reinhard Bonke

Exciting!!!

2006-07-04T15:57:00.000+08:00

just came back from the gym!! today's excersize was very fruitful!! did a 5km run...and 20 chest press.. hahah.. very very tired now..but i feel good. hopefully before i go Taiwan i can lose at least 5kg =P hahaha.. pray la pray la.. God let my excersizes be fruitful! let the calories from daily intake of food dissappear! In Jesus name!

later i am going to teach Asher.. and i am collecting the fees! because of the Taiwan trip, i must save every cent i've got! i am also trying to appeal for the town council fines!! God is able to help me waive it off! anyhow, i am running low on finances!! sigh.. so many htings this month! of all things, Elle birthday is coming too! she is my priority! i just pray that i will have a little excess after everything for Taiwan.. all i ask is to at least have $200..so i can spend in Taiwan at least on the food! hehe.. i lose 5kg to go there to put it back on! crazy idea....

after teaching Asher, i am going to meet my ACS buddies. really thank God for all their friendships! known them for almost a decade..some more... and over the years, we became closer and grow together as believers! i remember the times back then in school! we used to go for cg together and we were all from bro Chris cg!!! how memorable were those times!! after church back in hollywood theatre, we would go to katong for laksa and cs!! and then take mrt back together! over these years, God really forged between us such close bonds! And i believe that for each of us, God has a great destiny and calling for us to fulfill! lets really run this race well and to end it off well! no matter what, dun trade your salvation for anything in the world! especially not 30 pieces of silver! amen? =)

i still remember that experience during altar call last weekend! the tremendous presence of God! I really pray that every single night, i can have such encounters with the Lord. the fire of God must continue to burn each day and more so when the end is approaching! God is returning soon! every single day, more and more people are hearing about Jesus! and thats GREAT! everyday, signs are pointing towards Jerusalem where the heart of God is! everyday, the bible is revealing itself to be true and if thats so, Jesus will return very soon! I pray for the fear of the Lord to be upon my life! everything i do, every word i say, i want it to reflect Jesus in my life! ne day when I meet God face to face, i want to present myself blameless before Him, to be called a good and faithful servant of the Lord! and to enter into the eternal joy of God!

Lord let today be fruitful in Jesus name! let the fellowship bring forth love, joy, peace of the Holy Spirit! let each edify one another as iron sharpens iron.

Lets have an adventure Abba!!!

2006-07-03T18:09:00.000+08:00

gosh..i jus came back from jogging 4km!! .. i feel like i wanna faint...so long never excersize...

i realised that its so easy to EAT!! but its so difficult to excersize and to lose wight...

i must lose weight!! i am bloating like a balloon!!

2006-07-03T17:01:00.000+08:00

Im going jogging Lord!! multiply the fruits of my labour!!! =P

I shall press on towards the goal!!! In Jesus name!

2006-07-03T02:05:00.000+08:00

such a fruitful day today!!! the service was tremendous! I felt such tangible presence of God i have never felt in a long long while!! Today pastor preached about Peter again! about the 3 times Jesus asked him if he loved Him!! God was restoring back to peter wad the devil had stolen away! wow! that was wad God spoke to me through raymond that time! Amazing!

Today pastor layed hands on all the leaders and helpers whoa re feeling weary! i responded but not because i was feeling weary! i just wanted to be empowered once more to do greater works in Jesus name! and indeed, i encountered the Lord! I dunno why but there was this very awkard but comfortable sensation. i was trembling yet was still.. i felt that God was just in front of me!! This feeling is one that i would never forget for the rest of my life.. i knew that God was still not through with my life! and then pastor prayed and spoke a word over us! I felt that the word was shared for ME!!! Today Pst Tan during altar call, shared about how God's calling upon me being irrevocable! He said that no weapon formed against me shall prosper! these are the exact same things that God spoke to me clearly the past 3 nights! yesterday during Reinhard Bonke conference, God spoke the same to me! His calling upon my life is irrevocable!! today i finally couldnt hold back no more...i felt so loved by Him! i wept like a baby and it really felt marvellous! Jesus is so interested in me! and i am so in love with Him! Amen!

I feel so charged up with the fire of God now! I feel that God is in the process of lifting my faith level to another level! I know that God wants me to operate in another dimension! and i know with Him, i can do ALL things! indeed, this is truly the burning bush experience! I pray that with each passing day, when the going gets tough, I will love the Lord even more! His hands shall be upon me..to guard and to keep me! his rod and staff shall comfort me! with His rod and staff, i shall witness great miracles and His power...and it will inturn encourage me.. just as what the Lord said, "Lo, I am with you till the ends of the age". PTL!

today i am so happy, everything seemed so fruitful! I went to meet my talentime friends after svc at ser koon house. we spent many hours together playing games and celebrating birthday. but whats the most exciting part was.... at about 9pm... one new friend messaged me!!! he wrote.. "thank you for listening to me". I felt so much joy... for so long i felt so futile..but God is turning things around! my life shall make impact everywhere i set my feet on! I pray that the fire of God will continue to burn ever brighter and rub every human beings that i am in contact with!

God is good! wow!

yesterday, i bought a book written by Reinhard Bonke! hell empty heaven full! I pray that it will bless me and be effective in my witnessing to people! Truly, hell is meant only for one fellow thats the devil.. and heaven is meant for all the people! keep on keeping on...never lose heart in evangelism! because i have heard my leader shared once about our lives being like a bottle! like all bottles, there is a cap. and each time we sow into a life, we are slowing turning on the cap...someday, the cap will come lose and then the love of God can flow right in! Press on! keep on keeping on!

i am off to pray now.. i know that God will speak to me tonight..right here.. right now!

abba, thanks for Your wonderful mercy upon my life!

Amazing Night!! Reinhard Bonke is my hero..Jesus reigns!!!

2006-07-02T04:18:00.000+08:00

Today was fantastic!! I really thank God for, me being at the right place,at the right time, with the right man!! wooot! today i managed to seat 5 rows from the front! i was that near to the man of God! He preached such a powerful message! clearly, i knew that God was speaking to me about my life.. how He wants to use me.. and today, God brought about a restoration of my dreams and visions once again! PTL!!

Today Pst Reinhard Bonke preached about the fire of the Holy Spirit upon our lives! that enable us to stand before kings and nations, to be bold and not intimidated! because the gospel is not apologetic! Its truth and it will set people free! not because its historic means its history!! Its the living Word of God.. its God made flesh through the Word! anyhow, God was awesome!

one revelation that i had today... "Jesus save sinners to save sinners!" God meant for creation to reach out to one another! the cycle will continue till the day of the 2nd coming of the Lord! Indeed, Christ is needed for all nations! I need the fire of God to come upon me daily! to have a passion for the lost! the temperature must run high! God is demanding back from the devil what rightfully belongs to Him! its like when you go to a fruit shop and buy a bunch of bananas... with the receipt... it rightfully belongs to you! and Jesus bought us all with a price! we are all rightfully the Lord's! someday, the devil will spend lonesome eternity in hell all alone..becos as what Reinhard Bonke says.. "hell to the devil..and heaven for the people!" amen!

today, i really felt something i have not felt for so long... something that was buried so deep within me seems to be dug out again..the desire to win the lost! the dream to stand before thousands one day in the mission fields! the vision to see the sick healed under the power of Almighty God! all these seem very far... but with God, ALL things are possible! If God had indeed called me, the calling is irrevocable! no man can take it away!

I really have a desire to be a healing evangelist..to go to all the world to preach the gospel and to save the lost! to pray for the sick and see them healed in Jesus name! God...multiply my years that i lost to wandering.. multiply my years which the locust had stolen away! open the heavens over my life! take away the shame that the devil had placed into my life to cripple me so badly..the chains of bondage are now broken in Jesus name! i cant purrr like a cat now when thousands are losing their lives to the devil! I must roar the roar of faith like the Lion of Judah! because the violent shall take it by force!

The burning bush experience happened once only for Moses! but that was all it took for God to change a timid man to a bold conqueror! I am a warrior send by the Lord! I will speak to circumstances to be removed and it shall in Jesus name! because Jesus lives in me! the words that i speak, God will bring it to pass! I will not bow to multitudes of critics!! because the Lord + me makes the majority! and thats final. If the Lord is for me, then tell me... WHO can be against me? if pharoah was alive again and God send me to him...I know the miracles of God will take place again! pharoah has to lose all his workforce in one single day again! the red sea shall split once more..the chariots of the world will be destroyed again! because whats of the world can never come against whats of the Spirit. I pray this gets into your Spirit as much as it got into mine! With God, We form the majority!

God is in love with the church.. He is in love with me! and theres an important lesson to learn that is.. Never mess with a Man who is in love!! the devil will fight yes.. times of persecution will come...but it shall not abide! because the church shall rise up like a stove thats burning so hot! and the demonic flies nor the devil can sit on it! even if he does...he will get a swollen bum..and that only means that..its bigger and its easier for us to kick. both ways...he lose. therefore rise up church! be who God wants you to be! don't be apologetic about what you preach! because Jesus wasnt!

Oh how exciting it is! I know that God will raise up men and women all around the world who would take the nations by storm! I pray that i will be that one man who would do whatever the Lord calls. I pray that the fire of God will burn ever brighter with each passing day! I pray that i can be a light that will shine so bright because Jesus lives in me! Amen.

i am so tired physically now! but my Spirit is so alive! Theres something more than this! God is not through..i know..

soften my heart this day i pray...

In Jesus mighty name!

WHeeeeeee weeeeeeeee yeah!!!

2006-07-01T02:44:00.000+08:00

a long day it had been! today marks the start of an exciting weekend coming up...!! few hours from now, i will be in the same stadium as the man whom i had always regarded as my Spiritual father even tho he doesnt know me!! I have learned so much from him..received alot of his discipleship over the internet! simply love him! i pray that one day i can get to have coffee with him...somehow..someway? God will make a way=) its really exciting!

today i had cell group! I led praise and worship and took the offering. I felt it was ok for the p&w because before that we prayed alittle while! and i lost my voice!! gosh... i kept praying in my heart that i wouldnt lose my voice halfway which happened many times before.. if you know me, i seldom sing...i actually scream...becos i like to hear myself..not like as in like but jus like...arghhh...anyway, praise was ok only...didnt feel 'it' coming from the people. I thank God because we are fortunate. we have 2 guitarists in cg. so musically, its always quite good=p jus that i felt a little drowned. someday soon perhaps we could use a few mics. hehe..then need to raise up soundman.. then probably some ushers at the door..then some security, some lighting crew, some bookstore.. ok...thats a church not cg.

so lame.. hehe. ok...worship didnt go the way i planned it to be. but it has always been like that. i love to change the sequence halfway through..thank God for good guitarist..hah. I think as a worship leader, one impt factor is FLOW. be very sensitive to the leading of the Holy Spirit. so lots for me to learn becos somehow i feel that its quite a struggle before we can feel the presence of God. meanwhile, i will continue to pray up my life of course! becos these are not perfected by human wisdom...but the anointing=) how i wish someday, i can be like Benny Hinn..the moment i enter the house, people start to weep..tears of joy and conviction! wow. I know thats possible!

ok...offering was good. i shared the word from 1 chro...it is when king David challenged the people to give an offering to build the house of God. the people were willing... they came with golds,silvers,precious stones! but more important than a willing heart in giving, we need to know that it is a privilege to give to God!! after that, King David wrote a psalm to God..expressing his thanksgiving.. he said, "for who are we to be able to give so willingly to You..to give You something that belonged to You..." AMAZING! i tell you.. when you give to the Lord, deem it a privilege! not every one can have this oppotunity! amen? oh..thats what i call preaching!(pst kong) haha..

the word was about... UFM => united for missions!! ANd yeah!! i am going for my first mission trip of my life!! tho not what i always wanted thats africa, its ok! I am going to Taiwan!! my beloved asian country where some of my closest friends are! i miss them all and i am so excited to see them=) esp my taiwan brother, yuren. i have not seen him for agessssss!!! he use to take care of me back in ACS when i was a xiao hun hun.. little gangster. haha.. i really treat him as my real life brother.. there are only afew in my life. another is raymond. another is arton. i have close buddies tho...but these are really close people to me! known them since forever! heh.. Taiwan for Jesus!! Evangelist Samuel is coming! watch out devil.. =.=

i am quite sick of teaching on sat mornings! becos i always dread waking up so early to teach! my bike frens are out now!! yes now!! and i got to stay home because i dun wan to slp too late in case i cant wake up tmr! u see.. being a teacher isnt easy too.. you have to deal with not just the students...but also their parents. its like buy 1 get one free. sometimes 2. hais..but i must say, when i see them improving...its really very joyous! and i mus admit... when it comes to pay day, normally you will see me walking around with my lips spreaded so widely..nearly touching my ears at both ends=p

today my ACS buddy called me.. he just came back from BMT..(army) and he was complaining.. i kept laughing.. only to remember that its my turn soon..sigh. I love the army! ok i jus lied..but i believe it would somehow be memorable. k....counting down to my botak head days..

God is really so amazing..why? because He jus is! i know tomorrow, i will have an encounter with Him! for 4 years..i wanted to go for Reinhard Bonke conference! but somehow along the way, i always decide not to go..i was really like Jonah. but i know God had called me a time such as this! Dendoshi Samuel cumi!! <= what does that mean? its jap-eng-hebrew. so slowly figure out! haha

Lord speak to me.. Grant me a very discerning heart.. a heart thats pure and free from sin! Jesus You are my King! my Lord and everything! Holy Spirit.. You are my everlasting friend..i can lose all the rest if u wan me to...but I pray in my lifetime till the day i see you face to face, You will never ever let me go. You promise to be my companion for life.. You are the paraclete! the one who walks alongside me. I wan to see the power of God move so evidently in my life. Your calling upon me is irrevocable! do not let Your words go back to you void! Your promises are for eternal! and i embrace it dearly.. Lord i have a holy dissatisfaction! I want to see more of Your hands moving through me.. touch my hands... let whatever i lay my hands on prosper! let my hands be Your hands of healing! You are the God who heals.. and I am Your vessel for Your healing touch to flow.. In Jesus name...

Lets have an adventure tomorrow!

2006-06-30T04:04:00.000+08:00

Once i have turned my face from thee
yet You sought me and You cleansed me
made me whole again
Jesus my savior my beloved and friend
You praises i bring, from my heart i will sing

O draw me, o draw me away
Messiah today to Your presence to stay
O Jesus now change me and mould me
that i can be
ever more true to thee

2 days to fire conference!!

2006-06-30T03:33:00.000+08:00

I wanna go jogging!! but i am very lazy!! ok..we will see how it goes after i blog =p

Today after teaching, i met up with bro chris and bro qz... the leaders of my life. of curse..they are great people! people of substance..people of influence. like me.. ok i mean..me like them=p anyway, we met up at tiong bahru food centre! and i ordered a $3 Fried kway teow! and 2 words to describe it. It sucks. i lined up so long..and then finally got to try something so bad...but at least the fellowship was fruitful.

we went to bro chris office at AIA for awhile for chit chat because he needed to get some of his stuffs..being a manager is really not easy. at such late hour you still got to return to the office..=/ how tiring! anyhow, if your getting paid as much as he is.. i'm sure you wouldnt mind=)
then we adjourned to 'the legends', the country club behind park mall. it was really nice! the style of the design was very 'colonial' style. It was a perfect place for chill out after a day's work. we went to the billiards room and of course to play a couple of games of billiards. Its been so long since i last touch a cue.. actually not that long la..but in the past, i used to train daily. that was really a life of no life. err.. ok if u know what i mean. guess wad.. i really played like a noob today. very inconsistent.. hhaha. but thats actually acceptable considering i seldom touch billiards now! its about relaxing now.. no longer competitive snooker. heh..

after that we sat down to have a few drinks and some peanuts.. and we were just chit chatting. then the topic on leadership came up. bro chris taught me something which i will bear in mind always! he said, "cedric, a true leader leads with his heart! whereas, a manager jus manages and assign things". simple? not really.. its easier said than done. I have been trying to manage people for too long! well..maybe someday if you put me as a branch manager of macdonalds, i might do a good job.. but definitely not, if you want me to lead lives! you need to do it all out of the love you have! and heres the difference between the church and the world! many out ther just wants to lead, manage, assign and direct...how many really do it out of passion and love?

this is something i knew i must learn! if i want to be a good leader, i must learn to do things with my heart. besides, when Moses led the children of Isreal out of Eygypt.. he went up to the mountain to seek the Lord for directions..he could have just assign the way he wanted things to be. But he knew that only when God directs, then he can get the best for his people! that i say is a true leader! and i pray that i can be like him.

I know that i can be a good leader if i obey the commands of the Lord!

tmr is friday! 2 more days to fire conference!! I am so excited!! Its been so long and i really want to see my favorite evangelist face to face! i hope he will give an alter call to empower people to reach out or to be great evangelist! i think...if he comes to me and single me out.. i will faint on the spot! then I will sell both my bikes and go to Africa! haha.

Lord its been awhile.. let me see Your glory.. the pure at heart shall see You! let tmr cell group meeting be anointed.. as i lead the praise and offering, use me as Your vessel! Let me not speak with my understanding.. but let Your Spirit flow through me. In Jesus mighty name...

time to party Lord!

2006-06-29T14:17:00.000+08:00

Thank You for the cross the mighty cross
that God Himself should die for such as us
and everyday we're changed into Your image more and more
yes by the cross we've truly been transformed

and we're so amazed
and we give You praise
that You would save us at such a cost
and we're so amazed
and we give You praise
for the power of the cross!

reflections..how time flies..it was a great journey!

2006-06-29T02:12:00.000+08:00

I was on the way back..i was just reflecting upon my life. I remembered so clearly.. Young as i was.. I had so much passion to serve God to the best of my abilities! I wanted to do all that i could just so i could be near to His presence...to be ther when He calls! I pray that this hunger would come back to me.. three times more than ever! In Jesus name! Lord..my food is to do Your will..let me decrease daily and with every decrease in me, Lord You take the increase!

Reinhard Bonke is in town!!! I have long wanted to attend his meetings! I had even wanted to go to Africa just so i could attend his crusade!! I really love him because he is one of the few people who are still alive today whom i want to model my life after! what an inspiration he is! Really thank God for his ministry! this coming saturday, i am going to attend his fire conference!!!!! I am...nothing will stop me from going! I am going to line up immediately after my teaching! Because i know God is not through with me.. He is never! and i know i will receive my visions and dreams once again! Lord, if You can use anything Lord, You can use me! I am willing to give up all once again... just so i could start from zero.. hear the cries of my heart Lord. enlarge my territories i pray.

I was recalling what i had learn back in bible school. when pst Kong shared about the person in the Holy Spirit. He is more than an 'it'. He is a person..someone as real to you as your very breath. Just take a deep breath and you could very well experience Him! But there are afew characteristics that would either draw or repel Him.

He is attracted to a person with a lamb nature in him!
-meekness!
-loving!
-merciful!

meekness is not equal to weakness.. its soft in approach but strong in might! I pray that these characteristics would be birth in me!

the Holy Spirit is a friend.. He walks alongside..He is the one who cries with you...He is the one who rejoices with you..He is the one who walks you home each day and comforts you. and one thing i know.. as i write.. He is so well pleased..He loves me..He loves my company..all else can wait!

I long for the day when i can do great and mighty exploits in His name! I know that day isnt far...God is preparing me! He is moulding my character..He is about to launch me forth! It feels like the battle for 'helms deep'...a battle is about to rage! but the outcome is concluded..The Lord wins. and therefore i win! how amazing my God is! In my lifetime..i pray that i will have the oppotunity to witness the greatess amount of souls coming to the Lord! my life will be such a blessing to nations!

open up my eyes to see Lord.. open up my ears to hear Your word... open up my heart to perceive what You have and about to do! give me understanding.. grant me wisdom in all that i do! cleanse my heart that i may see Your face.. as i sanctify myself, do great wonders through me in Jesus name! raise me up as Your evangelist..to win the lost for You daily...to plunder hell and to populate heaven! make me an overcomer! make me a blessing to my nation and the nations around! I am still young and Lord You have a destiny for my life! open the windows of heaven over me! Let me see the hands of God moving so evidently in my life!

i am so filled with Your love Lord.. I cant stop praising Your works because they are simply fantasbulous!!! thanks for the 2nd chance..thanks for the lessons over the years.. Love You abba!!

superman will be out tmr.. but i am not at all excited.. why? i dunno. today i met up with raymond, Davin, QiZheng.. these are my buddies whom i have known for ages. I have always been so proud of Davin! He is a cell leader today leading the most excited bunch of people! He was the one who brought me to church when i was 15! how time flies... tho many of us are so often caught up with work, persuits of life.. yet there is always that sense of belonging when i am with them. they are my family! and simply put it.. i am willing to die for them.
Raymond and Qizheng of course, they are my buddies too! they are like big brother to me.. i remembered the old days when i always had no money and they often chip in to treat me..to bless me. today i am blessed and i in turn would want to bless them in any ways possible! I thank God for such friendship forged.. even tho our characters are so different! but its like a jigsaw puzzle.. without one it would never be complete! thank you guys! I am always praying for you! lets run this race together and end it off well!

oh yeah...back to story.. we went to the gym today!! yes GYM!! why? because i wanted to lose weight. QZ too.Dav and ray jus wanted to spend some time together. besides, we seldom get to fellowship with dav. anyway, i didnt manage to run on the threadmill(dunno how to spell)... because it was so crowded!!! being singaporeans, many hog(also dunno how to spell) just so they could make the best out of their $2.50! sigh... oh well...we ended up going for dinner shortly..at least the ban mian that we ate was reasonably good..and the rojak was fantastic!!! yummyummmmm...

i really enjoyed myself today tho it wasnt a very long fellowship. gone were the days when we used to have cell group meetings in school when many of us jus got saved back in ACS. we would go to the clocktower and the school gave us a room to ourselves!! we painted it, we slept in it, we had cg in it, we had deliverance in it...and in the end, we helped to destroy it becos the school was tearing it down! haha.. how memorable!

i know that God is preparing us all for the next phase in our lives! and the past victories only serve as a reminder that...God is faithful..He had been and He always will be!!

thank You Jesus for 7 wonderful years! greater years ahead!!!

2006-06-28T03:52:00.000+08:00

Lord!! Waive my fines!! I wanna go Taiwan! i am so suagu!! havnt been on mission trips!! let me go! its the in-thing now!!!

God is good!!!! Lord send me to Taiwan!!

2006-06-28T03:42:00.000+08:00

Today was a day of rest for me! stayed home all the way till about 6pm before i left for prayer meet!

Its been a long while since iw ent for any prayermeeting. the last i remembered was before we moved into expo! and till now.. finally i went again! Today pst cheekiang led the prayermeet! i felt it was awesome! why? because the presence of God was so tangible.

I reached about 7.15pm...by then they were already worshipping. It was pretty crowded and i couldnt find anyone i know so i stood all the way at the back. In my heart, i was expectant for the move of God! because God spoke to me the day before that He had a Word for me. somehow i know that.. dunno how...somehow i just know that!

I lifted my hands and began to worship God..though the place wasnt very well air-conditioned..yet i didnt feel stuffy. it wasnt long before i felt the sweet, comfortable feeling.the sweet tangible presence. ok..im not trying to be flaky here...i really mean it! it was so amazing..maybe it has been too long? perhaps! but i was really hungry for more of Him!!maybe you get this when you miss out too long? but even as i was on the way on my bike to ymca, i was quietly praying..."Lord, make me like a sponge! i need Your touch, Your anointing once again!" i was crying out for my heart to be sensitized to the Spirit. I really missed the past when i could come to Him with such close intimacy. one that was without motives, simply to enjoy every moment. But i know.. God has something greater now for me! How exciting!

after worship, pastor shared a verse from the bible, in Joshua 3:5... It was the story about Isreal crossing the Jordan...

V5. And Joshuasaid to the people, " Sanctify yourselves, for tomorrow the Lord will do wonders among you!"

the Lord will do wonders through me!!!would He really do that? "Its been so long, Lord.. " i was quietly asking.. but i was expectant anyhow!

the past few weeks were really a season of sanctification for me! I realised that there are sooo many things that needed to be readjusted in my life! there were so many character flaws that surfaced but for a reason! God was dealing with my life. I always remembered wad my ex-cell leader sister Eileen told me before... "cedric, your like a raw diamond..and God has so much he wants to do in Your life. but like all raw diamonds, it must go through a refining, purification before it becomes the priceless diamond that God had intended you to be!"

It wasnt exactly a very nice process to go through... murphy's law was constantly at work at the same time..it all felt like i was a plan of God that would be such a huge threat to the devil that he must send his smelly demons all at once to mess up my life! but as i was going through everything, i somehow began to lean more towards God..because indeed, apart from Him.. i can do nothing.

Lord You are so amazing..my Words are so limited! I am running out of words to describe Your beauty.. You are so faithful.. Your my all in all. I pray that you would take me.. all that i am.. all that i have.. as i lay them at Your feet.. Holy Spirit.. walk alongside me. the battles are never mine.. but i am fighting them with and for You. a once defeated soldier is ready to pick up his armour, his sword once again! Lord wouldnt you raise me up once more..

Today i was sharing with Elle about all that has happened. I know that God will take us both to the next level! I am really not concerned about all that people think.. all that people see..as long as God is happy..i am.

sometimes, when i meet my friends who are not in church..i cant help but wonder what kind of a history maker would each of these become? in order for myself to find out, i am determined to introduce this destiny maker called Jesus. I want to be part of their success! someone whom they would mention in their thanksgiving speeches..I wan to be an influence to the people around me. it doesnt matter if i had not been a good testimony in the past, it doesnt even matter even if i was unfaithful.. what matters is now. I pray for strength daily!

to reach out, to reclaim, to expand and to conquer...

In Jesus mighty name!

2006-06-27T14:01:00.000+08:00

Good Morning Holy Spirit!

let today be anotherday of victory! In Jesus name i pray!

2006-06-27T04:49:00.000+08:00

here is my heart...make it Your sanctuary....

I am so deeply in love!! whats this???!!!!!

2006-06-27T04:42:00.000+08:00

jus got back from jb.. im so tired! but i am still so in awe of what God is doing in my life!

i know that changes does not take place in a day, a week or even a month...but i also know that God will see me through! These few weeks have been awesome for me! so many things seems to be happening and it seemingly wants to take me down..but God had been with me.

i am listening to a very old song now.. the words are so meaningful..they are really the words from my heart...

Lord of my life i love You
Lord of my days i trust in You
living beneath the shelter of Your wings
my heart's safe!

For when i am lost, You find me
When i'm in need You comfort me
Lord of my life, You are my secret place!

Clothe me in Your presence Lord
draw me near to You
with all my heart i long to see Your face
living to be near You Lord
I long to see Your face
Lord forever Your my secret place!

Your my peace
Your my rest
Your my secret place!

Love You so much Jesus! i am falling in love with You over and over again! i mean it~

Today i watched Cars with Raymond and Elle! Its so good! laughed my head off! i loved the part when the tow truck and lighting went to scare those big headed trucks.. hahaa..! worth the $7 i paid for!!

by the way, i am so proud of my classmates!! they got into the semi-finals for superband!! their group name is MAN TOU!! cool rite? the drummer and keyboardist are my classmates! the singer is from the media arts department in school too! power!! i should have joined! but too bad i went to Thailand. well...there are many of such chances in future!!

Its been awhile since i spoken to feb! called her just now! glad all's well with her! really thank God for placing her in my life! such an awesome friend! small but mighty! =) so many things to thank God for! above all, i thank God for giving me so many 2nd chances! Lord Your the best!! i am praying that my fines will be waived! And if it does, i am going to Taiwan for emerge!! Lord hear my prayers!!! Let town council waive my fines!! In Jesus name! let me go for missions before i enter ns!!

In recent days, i am beginning to treasure the friends that God allow to come into my life. Of course there are those whom i feel are just merely 'hi' 'bye' friends. thank God for you anyhow.. there are those whom i thought are great but somehow they could never stay in the circle of trust..pity. But i wish you all the best too!!~

I pray that i will be like Jesus.. someone whom can walk into the lives of people! to step into their boats no matter who they are..at least to leave behind something. because i am called to be the light of the world and salt of the earth. I pray that my life is an influence to those around me! Jesus sat with the tax collectors.. Jesus ate with the sinners.. I pray for a big heart.. one that doesnt despise no matter how much i dislike that person. my God has a big heart.. and He will use me to find every need to meet it, every hurt to heal it, In Jesus name.

I always believed that every life is so precious in the sight of God. no matter how insignificant they may be now, God can turn him/her around! As long as they are willing to allow God to step into their boats! If you are sinking right now... its time to allow Jesus' miracles to take over. The bible says that God is knocking constantly at the door of our hearts.. are we going to open it humbly and say, "Lord its me.. come in" or are we going to let the mocking voices of our friends stop us? we have only one life to live...make it count! and only when we live it for the Lord, then it will ever count.

one day, my whole family will come to the Lord.. one day, God will prosper everything that i set my hands upon. because i am a person of destiny! I am really very happy.. because i know that God hath something so great prepared for me! I am so excited.. every step i take is so filled with expectancy! i have never really felt this way before.. God is so amazing. This is more than any relationship i have ever had! this is my first love. no words can explain how i feel inside.. its love in the first degree.

Tmr i will be having combine prayer meet at YMCA! i am so excited! its been awhile since i went for a prayermeet. I know that God will speak to me! I know that my prayer would count...because i am samuel! God wouldn't allow my words to fall to the ground! when i pray, the devil trembles.. because he is scared.. he is. he can run..but he can't hide. and thats a pretty amusing sight to see! anyhow.. I know that God will tkae my Cell group to the next level! I wan to raise up good helpers.. i pray for boldness as i speak into my members' life! I pray for wisdom and anointing to be upon me. I pray for grace and mercy to flow out of me because Jesus lives in me!

its been awhile... Holy Spirit.. lets have an adventure!

a song from my heart..

2006-06-26T17:03:00.000+08:00

I want to sing, until i am lost in Your love..
till i'm found in Your presence..
worshipping before Your throne
moved by Your Spirit
entering into Your courts
how precious this moment
Lord i want You to know

Its You, You who have won my heart
taken me into Your arms
comforted me like a friend
Your love, surrounded me from from the start
I never want to be apart
from You ever again

2006-06-26T04:17:00.000+08:00

just read through... so many gramatical errors.. haha.. can understand can le.. =PP

nites all... bed's calling... i must respond to this alter call!!

A Word in season!

2006-06-26T04:10:00.000+08:00

Today during service, i was physically exhausted... but praise and worship was so awesome for me! I felt the presence of God so strongly! and yeah! Ivan came with me for service today and he responded to the alter call! God your so awesome! You are a mighty savior! I am so happy each time the friends around me get to know my savior and hey!! God has His best plans for your life! You don't have to wander any longer!

anyway, i really felt it was a divine appointment today both for Ivan and myself! He has never been to church and today is his first time! i could tell he was quite curious about everything that was going on.. but i was like that too last time! in fact i was nervous because i didnt really liked huge crowds! But over the years, God began to boost my confidence..to teach me to stand before people! I know He is preparing me for the day when i can be like Reinhard Bonke.. to stand before millions and witness thousands coming to the Lord! Lord... i know that day will come. prepare me. i am 22.. make my life count for you! Amen.

anyhow, i am really happy for Ivan.. praying that he will allow God to speak to him, allow God to slowly help him with his life. Because..... God cares!

wooo.. nice color. =p

In the morning i was just sharing about how God spoke to Ray to me about my life being like Peter's right??? And guess wad... today pastor preached about Peter! I felt it was so coincidental. no. It was a Godincident! It was pre planned! Pst preached about how many times we are going in circles! and i felt that way!! not too long ago for a long time! I want to hear the voice of Faith!! I wan an encounter with Destiny!

Men sees situations...but God always look at the potentials! and I pray in my lifetime.. the tragedy of of adding weath to the tombstone will not be repeated i pray! God make me a light for all to see! I wan to shine because Your Word says that my light shall shine ever brighter unto the perfect day!

In Jesus' name....

Today after service, i fellowshipped with my members. I started to feel more love towards my members. They are my family. God had placed them in my life at this point for a reason. I pray that i will be at my best, to bring them the maximum impact. Thank You for believing in me Lord.. You have never remembered my past.. but always reminding me of my future i have in You! I am so amazed.

today i saw my sis! actually, i have never really said things that i am about to say.. but sis..if you are reading.. I am so proud to be my sister's brother. thats also why i like to introduce my friends to you. because like me... your so cool... pretty. for me is handsome. ok. i really mean it..

after we fellowshipped, i went back with Ivan and we met up with Andrew and chrislyn. we went to Elle house to watch DVD.. and i fell asleep! I was so tired... Elle told me that i woke up and started to pace about then went back to sleep in a different position. oh yeah..just for your info, i used to sleepwalk when i was younger.. so many funny experiences!! once 1 year back when i went to my buddy house to stay... in the middle of the night i started to sleepwalk....both of them were shocked! i walked to the wardrobe and opened the door. then i stood there not doing anything and my buddy whois also my senior from lasalle, thought i wanted to use the toilet...so he led me to the toilet and put me in front of the toilet bowl. then the next day he told me about it..and i couldnt even recall anything! by the way.. i didnt use the toilet at all! If i tell my M.O in the army..really wonder if he will freak out. maybe i might sleepwalk and take the rifles and play war. thats kinda scary...

tomorrow is going to be a long day.. need to appeal for my fine!!! sigh... wad a bother that is! Andrew wanna take me to eat so many things! He told me about the famous rojak in toa payoh, the famous prawn ball! and so much more! i think thats the good thing about being a chef... you know where all the good food are! Ivan is also a chef.. I think next time can ask him to teach me a couple of dishes! I had always wanted to learn cooking!! but no time only.. so Ivan must teach me ok? I teach you bible you teach me cooking! set. =P

I am so thankful to God for all the meaningful friendships He had placed into my life. This past month had been fabulous! through friends, God began to show Himself to me in a different light!! I know that God will raise me up.. God has been preparing me for that kairos moment! Theres more to life than this!! I can fulfill my destiny in Him because He is for me!

a verse that i am meditating on....

the secrets of the Lord are with those who fear Him, and He will show them His covenant!

Lord.. Show me Your covenant! Let me breakthrough constantly.. let me live each day feeding on your promises! Daily Rhema from You..Revelations that the world has yet to know! make me strong in Your might.. a carrier of revival! a daniel in the midst of the lions! be my deliverer! Let no men's words take me down because my strength is in You! I fear no evil because You are with me! I can have Love,Joy,peace! No weapon formed against me shall prosper because You are my shield! I am Your servant Lord.. teach me to obey Yur commands.. To live and to keep Your Word.

Love You abba!

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i am tired... Lord grand me journey mercy as i ride... please also turn off the aircon =p its really freezing cold!

Rock my World Lord!

Long and fruitful night...

2006-06-25T05:08:00.000+08:00

just got home from Raymond house.. i am feeling a little sleepy..actually..no.. i am feeling extremely sleepy! but i cant sleep because i am going to the airport in about 20mins time to pick Elle up! miss her so much.
had a very long talk with Raymond..been soooo long sinced we had such quality time together.

bro, if you are reading...just want to say that i really treasure our friendship alot! and yes...i am willing to die for you too. I am willing to give up any other friendship just for this! and honestly, if you are a woman..i would marry you! because you are simply awesome! love you bro! Thanks for everything you have given to me over the years! you are really an armour bearer of my life. I too am willing to serve you..one day we shall march victoriously into heaven! buddies forever!

right now, i am overwhelmed by the love of God.. His undying love for me! God had been so faithful through it all.. through the good, the bad and the ugly! what have i done to deserve such unconditional love?! Thank you Lord.. you leave me speechless. I love you Lord.. i am willing to be that vessel whom you can use as long as You are willing.

Raymond shared a word which really impacted my life! He says that i am like Simon Peter. Peter denied Jesus 3 times! I have gone through 3 major setbacks. and each time it really didnt reflect Jesus in me. There were fear, shame, denial in me. When Jesus came back, He went first to Peter and no one else. Peter felt the Lord's hands and it was real. the nail-pierced hands.. and the Lord asked Peter 3 times if he loved Him. the 3 times that Peter confessed that he did, God restored to him the faith, the power of God and the joy of his salvation. God is merciful..He wants to restore to me the years that the locust had stolen away.. the years of my wonderings.

God's promises upon my life are yes and amen. what God had ordained and spoken, no man can cast it down. and if my God is for me..then WHO can be against me? because He is with me...my cup shall overflow with abundance! goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life!

I am so happy these days. although many things are also happening and time and again, it seemed to want to take me out..But God has been turning it around for His good! somehow..i know that i need not worry. i really have so much i want to say..but let me digest everything that God had been speaking to me before i share anymore.

I want to fulfill the call of God in my life. I know it takes time.. and i know my God shall bring it to pass. just wan to share the lyrics of a song that i love..

FEEL THE NAILS

You told me Jesus died, for my transgressions...
and He paid the price, a long long time ago.
when He gave His life for me, on a hill called calvary
and theres something else i want to know..

does He still. feel the nails...
everytime i fail..
can He hear the crowd cry crucify again?
am i causing Him pain?
then i know i've got to change..
as i just can't bear the thoughts of hurting Him..

Holy..Holy..Holy is the Lord...

God,You are so amazing.. thanks for this life you have given to me.. it is Yours to take Lord. just never let me idle and waste it away. make the best out of me God. anoint me.. thanks for the friends you have placed into my life.. i really treasure them. God you know me through and through. let my intentions be right..let my motives be clear. love you loads.. Jesus.. help me keep awake this day! use me mightily i pray.
bless Feb's family.. let your blessings be upon my dear friend. Bless the dear ones in my life.. Elle, Raymond, Arton, Sister, Muyin, QZ and all my buddies. make me a man so full of the anointing. let my prayers move mountains and stop rain. because You have called me samuel so that You will not allow my words to fall to the ground! thank you God.. there is indeed none like you.

tired but overwhelmed.....

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i am in love once again... from my heart of hearts.........

Lord, i love u.

God's calling.. am i hearing?

2006-06-24T12:49:00.000+08:00

Last night i had a very long talk with my sister. yes, my sister. its been a long while and each time i seem to be able to receive very wise counsel from her. thank God for Godly siblings!

yes it has been a long while and i had been a Jonah. its tiring to run. Its tiring to hide. its more so in denial! my sis exact words were.. "I had always sensed such a strong destiny upon your life..." sister you know wad.. i know. I had always thought that God loved me the most. at least thats what i think. therefore He must have a great plan for my life. but so what if i am God's 'plan A' if i am not even willing to be willing?God would choose to use a 'plan C' the moment he chooses to carry the cross. i want to learn obedience Lord.. teach me to live and keep Your commands.

in recent weeks, God brought many things to my remembrance.. the promises.. His Word upon my life. I had to change. I can't live this lifestyle any longer. enough of being the devil's beanbag to be pushed around day and night by him. its sickening.

there are 3 things which sis mentioned to me..

1) we need Spiritual mentors in our lives.
2) we need peers whom we can draw inspiration and inspire.
3) we need deciples.

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Prayer for my life -

Lord i ask for your power and anointing to be upon me. Its been so long and i really miss you so much. I missed the times when i lingered so long in Your presence, hearing and conversing with You. You were my everything.. so be my everything once again. I am willing to give up all that i have in exchange for all that You are Lord. abba, i wan to walk the rest of my life with You. making you my top priority. teach me to be obedient to Your leading,Your Word, Your leadership. take away every pride and sin nature in me God.

Holy Spirit You are my friend. speak to me once again..break this heart of stone and make it a heart of flesh, ever so tender and sensitive to Your calls. walk with me.. You are the paracletos.. the friend who walk alongside me. speak to me daily... speak to me daily Lord. I need to hear from You once again. I want to hear from you Lord. When trouble comes i trust in You, for i know you will lead me through. Your the shepherd of whom i can depend.. through the day through the night.. i know You're always by my side.

Jesus i give you the key to my heart. take all of me in exchange for all of you. NO ONE can ever take Your place ever again. I won't allow anyone to do that anymore! I will be steadfast, inmovable. make me the head and not tha tail..above and not beneath. raise me up God. let the favor of God, the favor of men be upon my life once again. let the river of God flow mightily once more. I want to be a carrier of Your presence. Lord..make me Your vessel. i may have cracks and impurities.. But Your grace is sufficient for me. Your love will lead me through. Your hands are not too short that You cannot touch me. God..if You are willing. If you are willing you can Lord.. restore to me the joy of my salvation. restore to me the years of my wonderings..restore to me the years that the locust has stolen away. make me strong in Your sight. Change what the devil meant for evil into Your good! help me daily i pray, as i rebuild my walls. one hand i shall build and the other i shall fight. though the enemy will come in..but God You are my deliverer. You are my victorious warrior! You are living and powerful! You are the spoken Word! You are so real... Raise up your standard in my life!

In Jesus mighty name!

Amen. Amen!

Beany beans bun

2006-06-24T12:48:00.000+08:00

Beany beans bun

such a sleepy day...

2006-06-23T17:54:00.000+08:00

Its 6pm! and guess wad?!! I'm home!! John's over.. i think i need some of his enthusiasm man.. he is practicing his strokes behind me now..how guilty=/

anyway, just had fried sotong mee jus now! of course it tasted good. hmmm..

yesterday john made a comment.. "cedric, how come now you so quiet already? not as noisy as before..." come to think of it, i have really mellowed down so much. but thats not too bad too..i think thats where we get the phrase - silence is golden.

maybe perhaps, i have become a more 'thinking' or 'listening' person. good also..because God gave me one mouth and 2 ears..thers a reason for that=p I shall express more of myself over here!

recently, i read some of my old sermons which i have written over the years. some of which i had prepared and used for the lasalle cg meetings! actually, some of them are really good! because i took many qutes from pst kong, reinhard bonke! really love the ministry of both of these two!

Reinhard bonke once said in his video.. "one day when i die, i want to march gloriously into heaven with the people whom i have won for the Lord!"

I pray that this will be my life mission and greatest aim! not to be the greatest earner.. but soul winner. In Jesus name.

Its time i allow God to mould my character, life and shape my destiny once again! abba father...here is my life..make it your sanctuary.

today is friday..it is suppose to be a very happening day because it is weekend!! but i dread every saturday mornings! because i got to wake up early in the morning to teach! not that i dun enjoy teaching...but just that i really dread waking up early! last night i stayed over at john house...i initiated to 'ton' that is to stay up...but then i became the first to fall asleep. guess i have not been sleeping enough for too long thats why. right now as i am typing, i am feeling a little exhausted too! so maybe i might be posting some nonsense...i dunno. doesnt matter..anyway i will just write wad i feel like and whatever that goes through my mind at this point.

Guess wad!!! town council sent me a registered letter!! i received 2 parking offense few days earlier and it totalled $600!!!!!!! i bind u devil in Jesus name! i break your curse!! this will only make me pray against you more and now its with every moment when i think of the fine! bind u! curse ur curse! u noob!

ok i feel better.

anyway, i will go and appeal to the MP again this coming monday. sigh...so many of these unneccessary things to do! oh well..

my room is in a total mess now. i really wan to do it up nicely...but with some of my dad's things here. i just dun have any motivation. so technically speaking..its not really my room yet! but soon it will.. soon soon...

i really wanna start jogging...because i am so heavy now. the more i look into the mirror, the more i am beginning to find the image so strange. haha...by the way, someone commented that i look like brother KC.. haha! he is my church bassist. hmmm...i really dunno in what ways..but i think that he is really good looking! jus shed alittle weight and its picture perfect. heh.

okok...no more supper for me. thats final..the next time i post anythings about going for supper or i wen for supper, i will....buy u all a drink! deal? deal.

ok very very sleepy now.. i go catch a nap..

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Coolness!!!!

2006-06-23T02:57:00.000+08:00

as i am blogging...i am looking at my childhood friend's DTexpress!!! wow..its so cooll..imagine you can practice your drums into the wee hours!! oh yeah..i am currently at his place. its at bukit purmei! not so far from wher i live but if your taking the train, it can be very very troublesome! ok..back to the drumset!

just yesterday i saw the advance DTexpress at yamaha.. it cost a hefty $5k! crazy amount..with that i rather invest in a DW.. *droolssss* oh yeah.. i tried the one in church!! it cost $18k!! my goodness.thats the price of a brand new bike! oh well.. meanwhile.. i can only pray over my shopping list.

Today went to KTV with Zoe, Jia wei and TZ. how funny is that..Zoe dun even know them at all but yet she didnt mind me asking them along! haha..i think she just needs her mic and she will be happy. anyway, we sang so many songs!! yeah...of course i sang my favorite!! David tao!! i pray that God can change my singing and vocal power to his!! i am beginning to like one of his song..

NI AI WO HAI SHI TA?!!! (love me or him)

yeah...very fun song with a wide range! from low to very high. and i was telling zoe how feb can sing so high that even when she transposed one particular song to the max...she found that it was ok only. i'm so envious but thats ok..thats why im learning to play the harmonica..that would take over my singing when i play the guitar! haha.

Today was an interesting day...why? because it seemed that i did so many things in one day! met up so many people! spend so much money =X i need to really give myself a budget from tmr on..i must be a good steward! and oh... today zoe took my bike back home. we had jiawei and TZ as escort too! the way she gets on my bike and gets off is exactly the way elle would! so awkard! anyway, thats their problem. as long as i look good. all else is secondary..hahaha..

ok..actually i am not such a thick skin person.. i am joking 99% of the time! sometimes when i say all the very kuazhang things, its really harmless! well except for one.. i'm good looking. At LEAST God thinks so! heh=) He is my self-esteem. nothing else can tear it down!

oh yeah...and Eunice asked if i ended going for the KTV because i asked her to go earlier in the day but she had cell group. wasted. Come to think of it, known Eunice for almost 5 years now! shes really a great pal! my supper ministry member. she must be the only girl whom i know thats afraid of any other living things except humans. weird. but thats the thing about her that makes her Eunice. thanks for your friendship girl!

ok..back to John's room! his room is like a mini studio..its fitted with orange lamp which provides a very cosy feel..and as i am blogging, the 3 of them are drinking outside in the living room. and of course, i dun like drinking and i dun smoke. so its more constructive blogging my time away in the room. and yeah..its really really cosy! nice! i wouldnt mind a room like dat.. not too big not too small.. coolness!

John dun like my bike..he say it looks like christmas tree because of my L.E.D light which i installed under the seat. btw, he is retaking his class 2b license and he had the intention to buy a aprilia. hmm...eye candy but when it comes to maintenance, any others like me would come to one same conclusion!! => VERY EXPENSIVE!!!!!! he kept asking me for opinion.. and like what others told me before.. follow your heart.

how true aye?

so what is my heart telling me now? ?
maybe its time to sleep. golden rule when you stay over with a group of friends... BE KIASU!
if you don't sleep first...you tend to end up sleeping on the couch or the floor! so while they are still outside.... i better go "choop" the bed. ahahaha.. too bad guys.. the fittest survive!

blog again tmr!! gd nite all!

So noisy!!!! =X

2006-06-22T11:37:00.000+08:00

my god... early in the morning i am getting renovation sounds from above! and of all things... the drilling sounds!! GrrRRrr..

ok..i am going to buy my drumset! and i am going to practice from 6am to 9am daily!if i can wake up that is=p
oh well..i'll just treat it as a morning call for today...but if it persist..i might so crazy.

today is going to be a hectic day!so many things to do and i wanna go jb!!!i wanna KTV!!!i wanna sleep again!!arghhH..

ok...gotta rush out now..be back to blog again tonight! i miss Thailand..

sawasdeekrap! mai phen rai krap!

wWeeeee.....

memories......

2006-06-22T04:27:00.002+08:00

last year morning service before pst benny hinn! with my beloved cg!

And this is my darling!! i love him sooooo much.. my jogging partner too! time to start again!

2006-06-22T04:27:00.001+08:00

2006-06-22T04:27:00.000+08:00

2006-06-22T04:18:00.000+08:00

my next project..
-yoshimura exhaust system
-new paint job
-new tires
-full service

I am so tired!!

2006-06-22T02:54:00.000+08:00

ok...finally i am home. just went to thompson for bak chor mee.. but ended up eating laksa. its nice=)

Feb called and told me she's sick..poor thing..tho she is older than i am in terms of months, i really treat her as my little sister. there's jus something about her that makes me want to protect her. so peeps out ther,dun u bully her! otherwise you can choose which bike u want me to bang u with! haha..kidding. i'm too nice for that.

I am having this craving for KTV!! i wan to sing!! i jus feel so relaxed each time after a KTV session! just went last sunday with the talentime finalists. They are a bunch of fun people! really thank God for them! anyway, xinyi was quite funny..send me a sms in the morning to jio me for KTV tmr which is today. she asked me to go and then wan to make me the organiser..sometimes i really don't understand women. they are uniquely weird or weirdly unique. you decide.

been a long day...quite exhausted!

anyway, i bumped into samuel today!! really feel very happy everytime i see him! so proud of him! If ever you read my blog which i think not, i want you to know that i am so proud of you bro! your an inspiration! dinner soon man!! really soon i hope! we jus keep saying but always so busy!haha.

at this point, i really miss a couple of people in my life!

1) Arton (my indonesia bro!) i really hope to see you soon. if i have the chance, i will go to indonesia! i promise!

2) Yu Ren (my taiwanese bro!) have not seen you for 3yrs? man... bro u gotta come back soon!

3) mu yin (taiwanese sis!) hey girl!! i miss u so much. praying for you always! come back!visit me before i go ns!

4) Raymond (BUDDY!!) faster come back from isreal! lets go KTV! so much to share with you bro!

5) last but not least, My Girlfriend!! Elle.. pls learn as much as you can from the mission trip. don't fall asleep in service ok! when you come back then we go out.. I have been praying for you everytime i think of you! see ya soon =)

and hey.. to all my friends out there... i really treasure every moment we have spend together! regardless whether you are a guy/girl/half.. you are all God-sent! thanks for believing in me.. thanks for your friendships! i hope that this cedric have at least impacted your lives somehow or another..

i am soo tired now.. i am gonna report to zhou1 gong1 now.

byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

2006-06-21T23:34:00.000+08:00

RVF!!!! WAVE!!!!RVF!!!! WAVE!!!!RVF!!!! WAVE!!!!RVF!!!! WAVE!!!!RVF!!!! WAVE!!!!RVF!!!! WAVE!!!!RVF!!!! WAVE!!!!RVF!!!! WAVE!!!!RVF!!!! WAVE!!!!RVF!!!! WAVE!!!!RVF!!!! WAVE!!!!RVF!!!! WAVE!!!!RVF!!!! WAVE!!!!RVF!!!! WAVE!!!!RVF!!!! WAVE!!!!

Interesting day it was...

2006-06-21T23:20:00.000+08:00

today i went for my lesson.. oh mine.. how in the world can a drummer play so well?!!he's good like MAD!(jus as my small friend would put it) i am so proud to be my teacher's student man! I asked him to demo some fusion grooves for me to see.. and i was totally blown away! in case you do not know him.. he is Jimmy Lee. And he is going on a gig with SUN this july! cool isnt it?

then after that, i rushed back home to change my bike...because.. RVF is like an oven! already i'm baking under the hot afternoon sun..

then i met up with eigene and sebastian for lunch! it was really a very very humid day. then we went to PS for ice cream. ok, jus the day before i was saying that i am determine to shed some weight.. oh well.. we'll see how it goes.

ok.. and then i met up with Andrew,Chrislyn,Ivan(im at his house now!). we went to sengkang to wash bike! haha..this is so funny. come to think of it.. we have explored many parts of singapore already and now we are back to square 1..washing bikes at carparks! just like before we could ride..

I am quite tired physically now...really feel like slping.. but i also feel like having a night ride. need some time to relax. so many things have been happening...it all seemed so fast. tomorrow is thurs...gotta teach too!!

anyway, ivan jus finished bathing..time for us tyo meet andrew... will blog again when im home!

ciaoz..

2006-06-21T13:32:00.000+08:00

testing... is it fixed?

2006-06-21T13:27:00.000+08:00

i jus realised.... the timing is sa-la one.. how do i change it? maybe after a nap it might just re-adjust itself. ok...

-peace out-

Whats next after becoming a blogger?

2006-06-21T13:10:00.000+08:00

so..the coolness part is over. back to reality. what are the things i wanna share in my blog? mr. blogspot.. can you teach me what to blog? Mr. blogspot.. how do you earn money letting people create free acounts and start writting all over you. thats so sad ya know. i wouldnt let anyone pen their feelings on me. how sad right? i sympatise with you. but thank you for being so kind anyway..i love you!

ok... its 1.10pm now. i ve got a long day ahead..at 2.30pm i have my drums lesson with my teacher! he is fantastic! looks are so deceiving..if i saw him in the past, i would have probably thought that he was some uncle going to the market..so the next time you get onto the train, better start being nice to everyone around you. they might just end up being the C.E.O of microsoft. and why would he take MRT? i also dunno.

ok...then after got to teach again. then i am quite free at night because elle is in China. normally she will ask me to meet her for dinner. ELLE! dun grow any fatter!! we are suppose to lose weight rem??

this month has been a very trying one for me.. so many things happening like i mentioned. But God is a faithful God. somehow,somewhere,sometime.. i know He will provide. He is with me. I win.

I always had this mentality.. God works for my best.. just like the sms i received many many years ago..

"Dear God, thank you for making me healthy, could you also make me pretty. If you cant make me pretty then pls make all my friends fat. Amen"

i really think that God might just do jus that for me. why? i dunno. He is biased. He loves me. He adores me. He wants to spend time with me every single moment. and... most importantly, i LOVE HIM to bits. because he never ever ever ever EVEEeeerrrr give up on me even though i have always been the unfaithful one. with men its so different, you jus need to be unfaithful once and thats it..everything's history. God.. your my abba, daddy God. Your the coolest thing i ever had and will ever have!

Restore to me daily the joy of my salvation! Let me live and keep your word. do not let my heart be lifted but always a pure heart of loving and serving You all the days of my life till the day we meet. I am Yours to take. Love you..

In Jesus name..

I have become a blogger!!!

2006-06-21T12:49:00.000+08:00

wow..this is so interesting. everything also can choose. templates even! but i think if i could use my photo as my template, that would have been the best. anyhow, i chose this black looking thingy because i thing that reflects my coolness. ahha.joking.

ok...so for the golden question.. why beanybeansbun? this is unique.. firstly, a small friend of mine told me that people are able to do a blog-search and can easily find another blogger. i dunno but i think that a blog is an online diary. i wouldnt even let my mum read mine if i had one! so why would i choose one that's like... cedric@blogspot.com..

and of course because i am in love with tau sar bao. simple? cool.

recently so many things have been happening! sometimes, i feel that it is really driving me nuts, not that i am already not but it is driving me nutsier..ok. (is there such a word? =/)

but i have learn that in all things, to give thanks.. IN all things and not FOR all things. I feel that my capacity as a person can grow..my threshold for mental and emotional pains can go to the next level..haha.

you know sometimes that Mr. S.a Tan really amazes me. i wonder what feeds his mind that he seems to have 1001 things to sabo anyone. he really makes a good cell group game master. ok...if he join my cell group i will make him in charge of it.

I FEEL SO COOL!! becasue im a BLOGGER!!!! wooohoooo...