Long and fruitful night...

just got home from Raymond house.. i am feeling a little sleepy..actually..no.. i am feeling extremely sleepy! but i cant sleep because i am going to the airport in about 20mins time to pick Elle up! miss her so much.
had a very long talk with Raymond..been soooo long sinced we had such quality time together.

bro, if you are reading...just want to say that i really treasure our friendship alot! and yes...i am willing to die for you too. I am willing to give up any other friendship just for this! and honestly, if you are a woman..i would marry you! because you are simply awesome! love you bro! Thanks for everything you have given to me over the years! you are really an armour bearer of my life. I too am willing to serve you..one day we shall march victoriously into heaven! buddies forever!

right now, i am overwhelmed by the love of God.. His undying love for me! God had been so faithful through it all.. through the good, the bad and the ugly! what have i done to deserve such unconditional love?! Thank you Lord.. you leave me speechless. I love you Lord.. i am willing to be that vessel whom you can use as long as You are willing.

Raymond shared a word which really impacted my life! He says that i am like Simon Peter. Peter denied Jesus 3 times! I have gone through 3 major setbacks. and each time it really didnt reflect Jesus in me. There were fear, shame, denial in me. When Jesus came back, He went first to Peter and no one else. Peter felt the Lord's hands and it was real. the nail-pierced hands.. and the Lord asked Peter 3 times if he loved Him. the 3 times that Peter confessed that he did, God restored to him the faith, the power of God and the joy of his salvation. God is merciful..He wants to restore to me the years that the locust had stolen away.. the years of my wonderings.

God's promises upon my life are yes and amen. what God had ordained and spoken, no man can cast it down. and if my God is for me..then WHO can be against me? because He is with me...my cup shall overflow with abundance! goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life!

I am so happy these days. although many things are also happening and time and again, it seemed to want to take me out..But God has been turning it around for His good! somehow..i know that i need not worry. i really have so much i want to say..but let me digest everything that God had been speaking to me before i share anymore.

I want to fulfill the call of God in my life. I know it takes time.. and i know my God shall bring it to pass. just wan to share the lyrics of a song that i love..

FEEL THE NAILS

You told me Jesus died, for my transgressions...
and He paid the price, a long long time ago.
when He gave His life for me, on a hill called calvary
and theres something else i want to know..

does He still. feel the nails...
everytime i fail..
can He hear the crowd cry crucify again?
am i causing Him pain?
then i know i've got to change..
as i just can't bear the thoughts of hurting Him..

Holy..Holy..Holy is the Lord...

God,You are so amazing.. thanks for this life you have given to me.. it is Yours to take Lord. just never let me idle and waste it away. make the best out of me God. anoint me.. thanks for the friends you have placed into my life.. i really treasure them. God you know me through and through. let my intentions be right..let my motives be clear. love you loads.. Jesus.. help me keep awake this day! use me mightily i pray.
bless Feb's family.. let your blessings be upon my dear friend. Bless the dear ones in my life.. Elle, Raymond, Arton, Sister, Muyin, QZ and all my buddies. make me a man so full of the anointing. let my prayers move mountains and stop rain. because You have called me samuel so that You will not allow my words to fall to the ground! thank you God.. there is indeed none like you.

tired but overwhelmed.....